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today..
I felt happy
I felt pretty
I felt loved
I felt needed
I felt strong
I felt worthless
I felt hurt
I felt broken
I felt eager
I felt anxious
I felt flirty
I felt awesome
I felt amazing
I felt caring
I felt apathetic
I felt selfish
I felt courageous
I felt smart
I felt accomplished
I felt like a mentor
I felt like a leader
TODAY FELT AWESOME
I dont know why..but today I felt like I led things in my world, I felt like I have accomplished so many things as a person..and so many things as a leader...I dont know today was quite good..I got to see my Grandma and it was her Birthday..she was beautiful..and she didnt even know it was her birthday..but I didnt care...cuz I knew it was..and I knew how strong she was..and how well she was to be her age..she is so gorgeous..I appreciate everything about her..her inspiration..her love for God..but most of all her laughter...when she would laugh even if it wasnt funny..everyone would laugh..cuz they thought no matter what she was happy..
I got to hang out with people I love..Alex and Ruthy...and I missed Blake all day....but he came later..and I saw him and hugged him and my heart broke..I knew something was wrong..and he told me something was wrong...but I knew he was gonna be ok..cuz he looked me in the eye..and said.."Im ok"...and I told him I loved him and he said the same back..I made sure he got my number in case he needed me..cuz I want him to know I am here for him 110%...I love him..no matter what..
My heart broke once more again today as I watched RJ sit in the floor staring at nothing..knowing he was hurting..but I felt selfish...I felt hurt..from all the things he has done to me..I wanted to help him..but I dont know how to anymore..so I let him sit there...I said nothing to him..I just let him sit there..I dont feel its worth anything to me anymore...I know no matter what..things will probably never be the same with him anymore..and it isnt my fault..I blame it on myself but honestly..it isnt my fault anymore...this was something both him and I created...its his fault too..I cant afford to cry anymore..to hurt over something I didnt even do..I still love him NO MATTER WHAT..I always told him I would..but he didnt do the same for me...so therefore...our friendship was pointless..and painful...so now its over..I still love him..every inch of him..I love every bone in his body..I still love him...
<3
Savannah Noel
I felt happy
I felt pretty
I felt loved
I felt needed
I felt strong
I felt worthless
I felt hurt
I felt broken
I felt eager
I felt anxious
I felt flirty
I felt awesome
I felt amazing
I felt caring
I felt apathetic
I felt selfish
I felt courageous
I felt smart
I felt accomplished
I felt like a mentor
I felt like a leader
TODAY FELT AWESOME
I dont know why..but today I felt like I led things in my world, I felt like I have accomplished so many things as a person..and so many things as a leader...I dont know today was quite good..I got to see my Grandma and it was her Birthday..she was beautiful..and she didnt even know it was her birthday..but I didnt care...cuz I knew it was..and I knew how strong she was..and how well she was to be her age..she is so gorgeous..I appreciate everything about her..her inspiration..her love for God..but most of all her laughter...when she would laugh even if it wasnt funny..everyone would laugh..cuz they thought no matter what she was happy..
I got to hang out with people I love..Alex and Ruthy...and I missed Blake all day....but he came later..and I saw him and hugged him and my heart broke..I knew something was wrong..and he told me something was wrong...but I knew he was gonna be ok..cuz he looked me in the eye..and said.."Im ok"...and I told him I loved him and he said the same back..I made sure he got my number in case he needed me..cuz I want him to know I am here for him 110%...I love him..no matter what..
My heart broke once more again today as I watched RJ sit in the floor staring at nothing..knowing he was hurting..but I felt selfish...I felt hurt..from all the things he has done to me..I wanted to help him..but I dont know how to anymore..so I let him sit there...I said nothing to him..I just let him sit there..I dont feel its worth anything to me anymore...I know no matter what..things will probably never be the same with him anymore..and it isnt my fault..I blame it on myself but honestly..it isnt my fault anymore...this was something both him and I created...its his fault too..I cant afford to cry anymore..to hurt over something I didnt even do..I still love him NO MATTER WHAT..I always told him I would..but he didnt do the same for me...so therefore...our friendship was pointless..and painful...so now its over..I still love him..every inch of him..I love every bone in his body..I still love him...
<3
Savannah Noel