yeah bastards
I have decided it is impossible here..impossible to accomplish anything..people here are so critical and so freakin backstabbing...and its funny..no one has done anything to make me feel this way..I was just sitting here looking at things and realized it..people around here are fake..I love most of them to death..fake or not...but it seems as though no matter how hard you try..you loose people..I have lost RJ he doesnt even wanna talk to me anymore..he made that clear..when before I was the only one he called when he had problems...Ruthy and Blake are having problems..so she is calling him again..cuz she pulls thats whole backup plan shit that really pisses me off..first off RJ doesnt need that cuz he falls for it everytime...and its just a huge cicrle aroud here...Jessie has turned into nothing but a hoe..i would say a whore..but she isnt getting paid...I have lost so many friends...right now the only friends I say I have left are Sarah, Cody, and Katie...everyone else are backstabbers...I dunno...Matt is being a royal dick..he is stuck so far up Morgans ass now that she is back..but when she was gone..he was totally like vannah I love you..man b/s...I dont play that shit...he will find that out soon enough..i am no ones backup plan...not worth my heart...Blake is getting high everyday now..when before if he saw you smoke he would backhand you right there for even thinking about it..and his is excuse it..it helps relieve stress...come on dude..youre emo...you put your own stress on..thats why I choose the metal way of things...I literally...wish i could start all over...and just make things right with everyone..telling RJ the truth...not becoming friends with Ruthy...cuz I hated her a first...never hung out with Jessie I wish I had never let my Mom meet Matt..so she wouldnt want me to marry him....and all kinds of stupid junk...Im just like whatever...I wish everything was the way it was this summer..when we all got along and no one hated anyone...Norman was there and we all chilled all the time..no problem...no questions asked...we were there for each other..through good and bad..and when we didnt see each other for a week..we would freak out...now we havent seen Norman in months...Jessie sleeps around and RJ barely ever comes outta Brittys butt..so therefore...things suck..ok done with venting about HxC bullshit....