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A day with a wide range of happenings. Mom came home from the hospital today and it did her no good. The doctors are considering another back surgery as an option now because it has become obvious that more or stronger medication is not the answer. Last night (well more like really early last morning), austin came over cuz we havent talked in a while and had to catch up. we talked for a while and he stayed over. In the morning, sean came over and we hung out for a while and liwei came eventually, too. I went to the auto body shop to get some car wax stuff to spiffy up the cyclone for sale. I washed the car and while i was doing so, steph came over. Wonderful. She helped me clean my car a bit, then we went inside and hung out with my friends. She really is a genuinely beautiful part of my life in every sense of the phrase. After she had to go home, i went to the beach for a bon-fire with some old friends and made some new ones while i was there. Fun people. The drive back was an adventure, not the best directions were given to us. We made it tho. I really wish steph had been there. I miss her. She was the one perfect thing missing from the bon-fire. She had made a previous arrangements and as badly as i wanted her there, i admire her die-hard non-flakeyness. When i got home we talked for a while and it was good to hear her voice, even tho it wasnt the happiest conversation. She's scared of getting attached before leaving again, plus a few more unsure issues. It worries me a bit but i think she knows somewhere in her mind that this is different than anything we've ever had. at least i hope so. She said to me "Getting to know you better adds you to my list of people i'm gonna miss" As i see it, I'm absolutely crazy about you and you say you feel the same way... We're gonna miss eachother one way or the other. Determining now whether or not we stay together before you leave will only determine whether or not i'm still waiting when you get back. I want to wait for you... I dont want anyone else. "my eyes arent even open" Sleep well, baby. Hopefully il see you again tomorrow and everything will be perfect again. <3