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[asklepiades]

Give me love, not solitude.

Give me something, not nothing.

It doesn’t have to be this hard, it can be easy.

But it isn’t easy. It’s hard, hard, HARD.

I could do it on my own, but that is never what i wanted.

Why will no one ever come with me. Why am i always on my own.

The more i begged not to be invisible the more i vanished from the day, shrinking and silencing until i was the one with the keys but also the one in the cage. And i screamed and i screamed and you shook your head and hated me.

And hated i was no longer me,
And no longer me i was no longer,

And there was a certain silence in death that i miss.

I miss the silence when all i hear is your silence.
And all i hear is a ringing in my ears, my screaming, telling me i’ll never be human again.

The call it anger and i call it guilt and all i feel is sad because every day of my life is just starting over from square one.

I am so tired of them hating what i stand for and so tired of no one changing.

It doesn't have to be this hard, it can be easy.

But it isn’t easy.