Summer has come and passed The innocence can never last Wake me up when September ends
I hate my dad. Like really hate him. And strongly dislike my mom. Where do you go when you have no where to turn? My dad is a liar, hypocryte, and a huge prick. My mom cares wayyy too much about her kids and blows every little thing out of proportion cuz she gets upset so easily its insane. My boyrfriend is randomly in Mass when today was supposed to be our hangout day? I don't really talk to most of my old close friends, everyone is way to busy, including myself. Just shitty. Dad was yelling and I just turned around and walked out of the house and he yelled at me calling me a coward and said I need to stop running away from my problems when in reality I was leaving so I didn't end up being arrested for stabbing him to death with a pair of scissors. I walked down Pest House road and walked around the little cemetery and watched the tree frogs in a big puddle. The I hiked the powerlines and watched the sunset and tried to talk to the cows lol I dk? Came home, no one missed me but I didn't miss them either so its all good. I wish I could just get on a bus and leave but I have so much stuff I'm in charge of that it would just be chaotic. I dk what I'm going to do. I really don't think I'm going to make it through this year unless I get out of here. I wish I could just move out and get my own appartment or move in w/someone but my parents would never let me they'd call cops/make everything as diffecult as possible they are just determined to be in control of me forever and its not going to happen. I'm basically just ranting but I dont think anyone knows how seriously desperate I am. I really really don't know who to turn to or where to go but all I know is I can't take much more of this and I'll find a way out one way or another...