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i really don't know where to start....lots of shit has gone down, good and bad, since the last time i updated. overall, i'm doing very well, i'm happy and content with myself for once(comfortable in my own skin). i try not to let the bad shit get to me, b/c i have no control over, so why worry about it until it's necesary. as most everyone knows....i've got into a little bit of legal trouble, which , hopefully won't land me in the slammer, the way my lawyer is talking, i'm really not sure what's going to happen. i have to plead guilty to my charges b/c they have video, but like i said, i'm not going to worry about it too much until the time comes b/c there's no point in it really. i have to go to court on the 16th of august for my preliminary hearing. i'll try to keep posted what all happens with this(unless i get thrown in jail of course.
there has been some good stuff going on as well. i'm finally holding only one job, i'm not working my ass off like i was before. i actually have a little bit of time to myself, even though i do try to work sometimes even when i don't have to, it's relly nice to enjoy what your doing.
i'm almost finished with the methadone program. i had gone up to 65mg, and now im down to 20, on tuesday down to 15. once i get down to 10 im just going to stop going, b/c it will be kinda pointless, i've been through alot worse, so i know i can tough it out. i've come this far and i'm not going to fuck it up. i've been clean for almost 8 months now and i feel better than i have in i don't remember how long. i never want to go back to that lifestyle, b/c i know if i do i won't survive it the next time. i'm very lucky and happy to still be alive and kicking. i had forgotten what living was like and i want to continue doing it. i hope that all of you others that were right beside me figure it out as well.
jessica
there has been some good stuff going on as well. i'm finally holding only one job, i'm not working my ass off like i was before. i actually have a little bit of time to myself, even though i do try to work sometimes even when i don't have to, it's relly nice to enjoy what your doing.
i'm almost finished with the methadone program. i had gone up to 65mg, and now im down to 20, on tuesday down to 15. once i get down to 10 im just going to stop going, b/c it will be kinda pointless, i've been through alot worse, so i know i can tough it out. i've come this far and i'm not going to fuck it up. i've been clean for almost 8 months now and i feel better than i have in i don't remember how long. i never want to go back to that lifestyle, b/c i know if i do i won't survive it the next time. i'm very lucky and happy to still be alive and kicking. i had forgotten what living was like and i want to continue doing it. i hope that all of you others that were right beside me figure it out as well.
jessica