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This is probably the first day of the school year I’ve actually had a bad day.
Please read below, it’ll explain everything.
& I’de appreciate if you commented on your feelings towards the entry and the situation.
Thank you. :]
It all started last night. My mom likes to pick fights with me about the smallest things. She doesn’t understand me. Please correct me if I am wrong. If I wake up every morning RELIGOUSLY when my alarm clock goes off, I’m able to get up, and be ready for school on time every morning, should I have a specific time in which I’m limited to doing things at night? I’m not taking about going out, I’m talking about going on the computer/using the phone. Plus, I am really quiet to make sure not to disturb people who are sleeping. And, the latest I ever go to bed is 11. The thing I hate about my mother, is she holds anything she can over my head. ANYTHING. I know when I get a car, she’ll take it away if I do anything that doesn’t meet her expectations. So, last night, my friend was going through a tough time and I was talking to her on the phone, my mom wakes up, blows a fuse, and YELLS at me (It was around 10:30). So, I wake up and come to found out that she took my privileges on the computer completely off. On top of it, this morning she acts like a conceded moron and ignored me. I didn’t do anything, when she decides to HUMILIATE me and yell at me while the other person is still on the phone, I just said, “Okay, mom, I’ll get off, I’m sorry,” then went to bed. So, number one bad starter of my day.
So, I get to school and come to found out, more drama has happened. And I’m not going to beat around the bush like lots of people do, I’m going to lay it out. It’s between the whole Vince and Joy situation. If you’re in chorus, you know, if you’re not, ignore this or keep reading, your choice. I really regret getting involved with anybody. Today really made me realize how much I absolutely wish I would’ve never helped out some people. I mean, yeah, I still care about the people, but wow. I think it’s so immature for the things to get as badly out of hand as they did. I really do blame this all upon myself. Joy, I don’t care who you decide to blame this situation upon, but I really know it’s me. It’s me in the first place who even brought the idea of maybe a possibility between you and Vince? If it weren’t for that extremely pointless fight: Joy, Vince, Sean, Shay, and Shannon would all be close friends. I don’t know if things were different last year, because I wasn’t there. All I know is that I found out about a lot of people. I still think everybody in Chorus (who were and were not involved with the stupid situation) are my really close friends. I mean, we’re so young. Why are we worried about who is losing who as a friend and who is hanging out with their boyfriend? Just let it go, we have the rest of our lives to worry about little things like this. I believe all things happen for a reason. God says in the Bible that He will present different situations to us to see how we react. How we react is how He will reward us. I know that I am not the innocent one in the situation in this. Oh Lord, I know. And I apologize to Shannon for betraying her trust and maybe even our friendship? I regret ever telling anybody anything. I don’t think Joy/Shannon deserved the stress that was brought into such a small problem. The whole situation was a hill turned into a mountain. For some people involved in this, this is their last year of high school. Why should they have a memory of their last year like this? It isn’t fair to them. I am not blaming anybody for anything. I think we all know we were all wrong in some way(s). I know some people know they crossed some lines that shouldn’t have been crossed and others were just on the border of those lines. This situation was absolutely pointless and was allowed to get out of hand very quickly.
To all of those who deserve an apology, I’m sorry. I hope this can somehow be put behind us and possibly you can try to become all good friends again. Relationships can sometimes bring the happiest things and the worst. You decide what was brought. I also apologize if I upset anybody with this post, but if you were one of the MANY who asked me what was the matter today, this was the reason. Thanks for reading.
PS) If you’re wondering how I got on the computer to post this, I went on my sister’s SN. SHHHHHHH. I should be on later when my mom goes to sleep.