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So I went a put in a few job applications today. I spoke with a manager from Cracker Barrel. He said he was going to put my application to the side and bring it up in their weekly meeting on Friday. I'm going to be hoping and praying that I got a job there. I'm trying to get back into serving. Anyone know of anywhere that is hiring wait staff right now?
Michael called today after I had already left to go look for a job. I guess he got my message. Either that or he wants something. I'm kind of glad that I wasn't at home so that he has to keep wondering where I am and what I'm doing. He doesn't like not being able to control me. On another note I've decided to write him a letter explaining to him that I will be praying for him and that I forgive him for his mistakes. I'm going to let him know that I hope one day he will be able to forgive me for mine as well. This does not mean I think that we should get back together. Even thinking about that is a long way off. I cannot allow him to drag me down any longer. I have to get myself together for me and my children without him. I can no longer wait on him to make up his mind on whether he wants to have a life with me and the kids. That's okay though because honestly if he's going to be making the same choices he's made for the last four years then we don't need him anyways.
I'm so tired of sleeping and eating. The first few weeks of getting clean sucks the most. I can continue to do this though. I owe it to myself and my children.
I go to court on Wednesday about custody of Avalynn. If everything goes according to plan I should have supervised visitation with her every other Saturday. I'm excited to be a part of her life again. I miss her very much.
Michael called today after I had already left to go look for a job. I guess he got my message. Either that or he wants something. I'm kind of glad that I wasn't at home so that he has to keep wondering where I am and what I'm doing. He doesn't like not being able to control me. On another note I've decided to write him a letter explaining to him that I will be praying for him and that I forgive him for his mistakes. I'm going to let him know that I hope one day he will be able to forgive me for mine as well. This does not mean I think that we should get back together. Even thinking about that is a long way off. I cannot allow him to drag me down any longer. I have to get myself together for me and my children without him. I can no longer wait on him to make up his mind on whether he wants to have a life with me and the kids. That's okay though because honestly if he's going to be making the same choices he's made for the last four years then we don't need him anyways.
I'm so tired of sleeping and eating. The first few weeks of getting clean sucks the most. I can continue to do this though. I owe it to myself and my children.
I go to court on Wednesday about custody of Avalynn. If everything goes according to plan I should have supervised visitation with her every other Saturday. I'm excited to be a part of her life again. I miss her very much.