And you left me here stranded...
Again...lyrics to express how I' feeling right about now (almost every word is true). My journal entry will be at the end. Be sure to read...there's a message for someone..maybe he'll read it.
The Tony Rich Project - "Nobody Knows"
I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls close in more every day
and I'm dying inside
and nobody knows it but me
Like a clown, I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
and I'm crying inside
and nobody knows it but me
Why didn't I say
the things I needed to say?
How could I let my angel get away?
Now my world is just a tumbling down
I can say it so clearly
but you're no where around
(chorus)
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
and I just keep thinking about the love that we had
and I'm missing you
and nobody knows it but me
I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
and I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm trembling inside
and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake, it's a quarter past three
I'm screaming at night as if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah, my heart is calling you
and nobody knows it but me
How blue can I get?
You can ask my heart
but like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words wouldn't say
just how I feel
A million years from now, I know
I'll be loving you still
Repeat (Chorus)
Tomorrow morning, I'm hittin' the dusty road
gonna find you whereever, ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope you come back to me
...said when the nights are lonely....
Repeat (Chorus)
Well, last Friday after school Sara came over, when she left I was about to go sleepover at Erika's...then... my rents found my weed. So no more drugs for me. I quit. For now at least. But yeah, I was grounded for about a week. I still have not spoken to my dad...it's been almost 2 weeks. Crazy. I guess I have some good news..maybe.. I might get to move out of this hell hole (my house), if I do, I wanna live with my Nina. The longest we went without talking was a day. It's uncomfortable. Friday after school uhhh I went shopping and seen my brother and me, my sister Alex and my brother AJ (he's gonna be 2 already in December!) are gonna take pictures at Artista off San Carlos. Saturday, went more shopping and then when I came home around 5 I went with Sara to the batting cages, which they just put around the corner from my house. Then I got home around 8? But yeah..the next day (Sunday) me and Yuri went to Sara's house. I got home around 8. Well, today...I decided to give up on Tommy. It's not good for me. I'm so emotional over his ass now, and it's not like he cares. Why didn't God give guys emotion? It just hella feels like they don't have any. Well I'm not giving up...but I'm just not gonna even try no more. It's hurts. Like a bitch. I guess letting him know how I never liked or cared for someone the way I do him, was the wrong thing to do. But if he ever wants me, I want him to...wait... I want you to know Tommy, a part of me will always be yours. If you ever need me, just know, I'll be here waiting. You mean so much to me, if you could only realize. But it's my own personal fault. I mean what did I really expect? Right now, I just can't keep hurting myself trying. It hurts in so many ways. Well, I think that's about it for my entry.
I knew you were too good to be true.
The Tony Rich Project - "Nobody Knows"
I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls close in more every day
and I'm dying inside
and nobody knows it but me
Like a clown, I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
and I'm crying inside
and nobody knows it but me
Why didn't I say
the things I needed to say?
How could I let my angel get away?
Now my world is just a tumbling down
I can say it so clearly
but you're no where around
(chorus)
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
and I just keep thinking about the love that we had
and I'm missing you
and nobody knows it but me
I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
and I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm trembling inside
and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake, it's a quarter past three
I'm screaming at night as if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah, my heart is calling you
and nobody knows it but me
How blue can I get?
You can ask my heart
but like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words wouldn't say
just how I feel
A million years from now, I know
I'll be loving you still
Repeat (Chorus)
Tomorrow morning, I'm hittin' the dusty road
gonna find you whereever, ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope you come back to me
...said when the nights are lonely....
Repeat (Chorus)
Well, last Friday after school Sara came over, when she left I was about to go sleepover at Erika's...then... my rents found my weed. So no more drugs for me. I quit. For now at least. But yeah, I was grounded for about a week. I still have not spoken to my dad...it's been almost 2 weeks. Crazy. I guess I have some good news..maybe.. I might get to move out of this hell hole (my house), if I do, I wanna live with my Nina. The longest we went without talking was a day. It's uncomfortable. Friday after school uhhh I went shopping and seen my brother and me, my sister Alex and my brother AJ (he's gonna be 2 already in December!) are gonna take pictures at Artista off San Carlos. Saturday, went more shopping and then when I came home around 5 I went with Sara to the batting cages, which they just put around the corner from my house. Then I got home around 8? But yeah..the next day (Sunday) me and Yuri went to Sara's house. I got home around 8. Well, today...I decided to give up on Tommy. It's not good for me. I'm so emotional over his ass now, and it's not like he cares. Why didn't God give guys emotion? It just hella feels like they don't have any. Well I'm not giving up...but I'm just not gonna even try no more. It's hurts. Like a bitch. I guess letting him know how I never liked or cared for someone the way I do him, was the wrong thing to do. But if he ever wants me, I want him to...wait... I want you to know Tommy, a part of me will always be yours. If you ever need me, just know, I'll be here waiting. You mean so much to me, if you could only realize. But it's my own personal fault. I mean what did I really expect? Right now, I just can't keep hurting myself trying. It hurts in so many ways. Well, I think that's about it for my entry.
I knew you were too good to be true.