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okay well today was the first day of summer school. yeah can you say, "WE IYRUIYVR783B ;V4YI EUIV"?
that's all i can describe it as. haha. i hate it already, i don't know how i'll be able to stand a month of it. good god i hate it, science is so boring. i fell asleep on the first day. and it's such a big class too, agawam = stupid.
yeah so anyway. yesterday was awesome. I actually cancelled plans with my friends to go on a 'family outing'. yeah wow probably not smart. but i admit it was nice to get away from it all for a day. i went to this place called Sun Valley with my mom, dad and sister. my aunt owns this place, it's basically like a campground. it's a lake, so it's not technically a beach. but thats what i refer to it as. yeah so we went around 1 or so and got back at like 6. it was neat, i went swimming with lucy (my 11 year old sister) in the lake and ate obviously lol. and i fell asleep on a blanket while listening to music =)
i hate it when you only have one thing on your mind ALL DAY. every minute. it's really annoying.
so yeah i relaxed. then i got a call from alex on my cell phone when we were about to leave. just.. wow. i don't think i've ever felt that good AND bad at one time before. just.. wow. lol yeah uhm so i went home and i went right to kim's house =D lol cause nick called and asked me to come over there cause he was there too and we could.. partay? haha.
we didn't do much over there. we just kind of hung out.. alex got home from Maine. i finally got to see the rest of Rocky IV!! yesss. it was really good too. go rocky!! hehe i really want to learn to fight like that. not that professional of course, just well enough so i can kick the shit out of people i don't like. lol i should start getting into shape. that'd be fun times. lol =) yeah but anyway.. so i'm an idiot and i went to bed at 2:30 on a night when i knew i had to get up at 7. good god that was dumb. lol yeah so.. summer school = death.
hmm..
okay so i feel really, not myself lately. i can't stand it. it's a combination of being worried, terrified, excited, upset and angry. yeah excited is the only relatively good feeling in there and sometimes it's not even the good kind of excited. like last night, i was really angry for NO reason. and then i got upset and i wanted to cry. i even tried to cry, and it wouldn't work. i just got more angry. grr i hate that aspect of my personality. it's almost impossible for me to cry.
i don't know, i'm just confused about everything going on. i'm just so.. alone. and of course there's that person that i need, the one who always make me feel better. yeah not gonna happen. ughh i hate this, i need someone to talk to or something cause this isn't working for me. hopefully i get back to my old self soon.
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that's all i can describe it as. haha. i hate it already, i don't know how i'll be able to stand a month of it. good god i hate it, science is so boring. i fell asleep on the first day. and it's such a big class too, agawam = stupid.
yeah so anyway. yesterday was awesome. I actually cancelled plans with my friends to go on a 'family outing'. yeah wow probably not smart. but i admit it was nice to get away from it all for a day. i went to this place called Sun Valley with my mom, dad and sister. my aunt owns this place, it's basically like a campground. it's a lake, so it's not technically a beach. but thats what i refer to it as. yeah so we went around 1 or so and got back at like 6. it was neat, i went swimming with lucy (my 11 year old sister) in the lake and ate obviously lol. and i fell asleep on a blanket while listening to music =)
i hate it when you only have one thing on your mind ALL DAY. every minute. it's really annoying.
so yeah i relaxed. then i got a call from alex on my cell phone when we were about to leave. just.. wow. i don't think i've ever felt that good AND bad at one time before. just.. wow. lol yeah uhm so i went home and i went right to kim's house =D lol cause nick called and asked me to come over there cause he was there too and we could.. partay? haha.
we didn't do much over there. we just kind of hung out.. alex got home from Maine. i finally got to see the rest of Rocky IV!! yesss. it was really good too. go rocky!! hehe i really want to learn to fight like that. not that professional of course, just well enough so i can kick the shit out of people i don't like. lol i should start getting into shape. that'd be fun times. lol =) yeah but anyway.. so i'm an idiot and i went to bed at 2:30 on a night when i knew i had to get up at 7. good god that was dumb. lol yeah so.. summer school = death.
hmm..
okay so i feel really, not myself lately. i can't stand it. it's a combination of being worried, terrified, excited, upset and angry. yeah excited is the only relatively good feeling in there and sometimes it's not even the good kind of excited. like last night, i was really angry for NO reason. and then i got upset and i wanted to cry. i even tried to cry, and it wouldn't work. i just got more angry. grr i hate that aspect of my personality. it's almost impossible for me to cry.
i don't know, i'm just confused about everything going on. i'm just so.. alone. and of course there's that person that i need, the one who always make me feel better. yeah not gonna happen. ughh i hate this, i need someone to talk to or something cause this isn't working for me. hopefully i get back to my old self soon.
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