may we see ourselves for what we are, we are, we are
i hate our system...if you're a girl you know what i'm talking about...i mean the girl/boy system. there's like this unspoken rule that if youre friends with a girl and they tell you they like a guy, you don't go for that guy. so theres this girl in one of my classes that likes this dude thats in two of my classes and one class a few weeks ago she told me, well before that i had been trying to think of a way to talk to him...now its like blown...but i mean ive been talking to him a little bit anyway...just about class stuff mostly...but hes a really nice guy. i'd really like to get to know him more...but that girl haha. whatever. today in class he was "sleeping" (im not convinced he was actually asleep, i think he heard this whole thing...but how he kept such a straight face...i dont know) and michelle was like "oh hes sleeping too" and amanda goes "who?" and jake (LOUDLY) says "YOUR BOYFRIEND" we laughed...for me it was more of a laughing-cuz-everyone-else-was type of thing...then she was like "whered you say he worked again?" and at this point i was SURE that he was awake and just listening to all this so turned and said quietly "an auto place in chantilly" and she goes "CHANTILLY? thats too far" i was like *SHUT UP* (in my head, of course) i didnt want him to hear me tell her that!! that was what WE talked about. he probably won't talk to me again now. oh well. how sad is that. i need to get a life haha.
so i went to dinner with mrs. debbie and when we came out we hugged goodbye and i said "bye" as i was turning and i heard a dude go "HI" and i thought it was just someone being stupid and i laughed and looked at the guy that said it and it was alvin! what a weird thing! haha and i was like "heeeeyyyy" and then he turned...it was so dark, i dont think he had actually seen that it was me and he just randomly said hi haha. but that was really funny...to me anyway ha.
the emery show was absolutely AMAZING. i went with brandon, lee, and dan. that was definitely one of the best shows i've been to in a looooooooooooooooooooooong time. i'm lazy, so i'm only posting two pics right now. :)
dan, lee, brandon, me
i looked at this and i was like...why does it look like we're color coordinated? haha and if brandon had had water or something it would have been funnier.
singer of emery and me. that dude was really nice..so was the keyboard player...but i'm not gonna post that one haha its not a very good pic haha :)
i almost passed out once i got to the front, i really thought i was going to...and i thought about leaving but there was no moving in that crowd man haha and i was lovin it anyway. this really tall dude (so tall that when i talked to him i had to turn my head up and he had to turn his down haha) helped me get to the front. i love him and want to find him and thank him...but i dont know his name so i cant find him on myspace...i know what he looks like and that he lives in waldorf...but that doesnt help much haha.
and the all amazing alley trip is still recording and will have an AWESOME thing done here soon. i'm like a proud mom...only i'm a proud "amandager" haha i love those guys, and the you're wrong dance :)
anyway...maybe i can go to school tomorrow WITHOUT having other people make themselves AND ME look stupid.
maybe.
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