May 26, 2005 22:09
i want to go home. tomorrow i will. that is it. and it is great. i have to admit that i am chomping at the bit. i can't be strong all the time. i will admit that i am frustrated. zach hodges is a good engenier but he has no work ethic and it is not going well for the progress on our album. i am having flashes of pain, like emotional. my parents are breaking up. yay. so i am going home early to keep my siblings sane. yay.
i want to scream. i wish i could play my drums now. i need it. i wonder if i am the person i think i am or if i am ... something else. sometimes i wonder if when jason tells me i am really moody if that is part of my mom coming through. am i going to be impossible to please and hopelessly devoted to emotion? i wish someone could tell me if i will have manic tendencies. the answer to the emotion thing is at least i can do something about it. you are never hopeless. u dont have to be like anyone unless you are insane. i wish i could be crazy for a minute.
alot of the time i am the one who people come to and i am the strong one. what if i am not strong for a while. can i be serious. will you take me that way. i sometimes think that i am not taken seriously. and most of the time i just think i am not taken.
when i go home i will see nat and she will make me smile and i need my brother to hug me. he makes me laugh. God make me something that he would be wise to follow or at least point him to someone that is. i need to buy some drums. if anyone wants to give me some drums or naked pictures or money
here is my address.
or just call me. we'll set something up
7706538825