I've got to admit.
Things are always better than I say they are. It was a nice week that ended beautifully. I am busy. I am assertive. I am being productive. I will not beat myself up and an excellent weekend seems incipient.
I feel joy right now. It is easy to feel occasional joy. It is always harder to recognize you are feeling it - to isolate it from all the other fleeting gasps and reaction shots in the clusterfuck movie that is life. To be able to point it out in yourself and savor that moment is a skill, a sign of being, a sign of okayness.
I think I am finally okay now.
I feel joy right now. It is easy to feel occasional joy. It is always harder to recognize you are feeling it - to isolate it from all the other fleeting gasps and reaction shots in the clusterfuck movie that is life. To be able to point it out in yourself and savor that moment is a skill, a sign of being, a sign of okayness.
I think I am finally okay now.