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wow, it's been so long since i made a proper update. things didn't get any better over the last two years. i never really made any proper friends, managed to complete the first year by a miricle and came back for some more. this year has been a lot harder work wise, and i felt myself crumbling under the pressure.
i was so bumbed out last year, my friend died, and then my nan died, and then my unlce died, all in quick sucession. i discovered who my real friends were (ie. none of them) and now i spend my evening either at kung fu training, ju jitsu training or watching films alone in my room. i learnt to play the drums, but my band mates could never be arsed to practise, so it was always me, on my own. things may be looking up for next year, as i have been asked to play for a band. maybe this will be an oppertunity to start over. however i have to pass this year first. things aren't looking to good for that. revision is hell, and the course is boring and hard. part of me hopes i fail so i can go elsewhere and start again. but to be honest, it would probably only end up the same way. thank god for the folks on my forum and the guys at time and chips, they keep me sane, though in a constant state of fantasy land. maybe thats not such a bad thing.
i was so bumbed out last year, my friend died, and then my nan died, and then my unlce died, all in quick sucession. i discovered who my real friends were (ie. none of them) and now i spend my evening either at kung fu training, ju jitsu training or watching films alone in my room. i learnt to play the drums, but my band mates could never be arsed to practise, so it was always me, on my own. things may be looking up for next year, as i have been asked to play for a band. maybe this will be an oppertunity to start over. however i have to pass this year first. things aren't looking to good for that. revision is hell, and the course is boring and hard. part of me hopes i fail so i can go elsewhere and start again. but to be honest, it would probably only end up the same way. thank god for the folks on my forum and the guys at time and chips, they keep me sane, though in a constant state of fantasy land. maybe thats not such a bad thing.