And the current reality is...
Ah, the Monday entry... it has become kind of a trend, I think.
On Mondays, the week ahead usually seems so endless. But I think I'm coming to the realization that I'm going to wake up tomorrow and it will be Friday. Or so to speak.
That means a number of things: when I wake up, I will be closer to seeing Tara. I will be closer to Thanksgiving (Dad's stuffing and the smell of home and chatting with my sister and hugs from my brother and drinking coffee in the fireplace room with Mom... that just sounds so nice right now). I will be closer to more than one full day with Noah (thank God!).
But I will also be closer to donning the cap and gown and a big, big change in my life. A whole lot of uncertainty starts soon.
I don't think I've ever been so thrilled and terrified all at once.
I guess it's not that big, you know? I mean, high school grad was no biggie. It was exciting, new... I don't know. But this. This seems colossal. Overwhelming.
I'm feeling better after having talked to my mom last week about how I will probably be her unemployed daughter for a little while, seeing as Servant Year hasn't bothered taking the time to call me or drop me an email even though it's been almost three weeks since I sent my resume in and a week since I called and left a message. There's still a chance, but chances are, I'm going to be crashing with my folks for several months and trying to find a job close to home or in Philly. Something transitional but good. Preferably with at least minimal health coverage.
And then, and then, and then.
I just needed to get on here and blah, blah, blah for a few minutes. Sorry for my incessant chatter. I'm just tired of people asking me what's next, because I don't have an answer.
On Mondays, the week ahead usually seems so endless. But I think I'm coming to the realization that I'm going to wake up tomorrow and it will be Friday. Or so to speak.
That means a number of things: when I wake up, I will be closer to seeing Tara. I will be closer to Thanksgiving (Dad's stuffing and the smell of home and chatting with my sister and hugs from my brother and drinking coffee in the fireplace room with Mom... that just sounds so nice right now). I will be closer to more than one full day with Noah (thank God!).
But I will also be closer to donning the cap and gown and a big, big change in my life. A whole lot of uncertainty starts soon.
I don't think I've ever been so thrilled and terrified all at once.
I guess it's not that big, you know? I mean, high school grad was no biggie. It was exciting, new... I don't know. But this. This seems colossal. Overwhelming.
I'm feeling better after having talked to my mom last week about how I will probably be her unemployed daughter for a little while, seeing as Servant Year hasn't bothered taking the time to call me or drop me an email even though it's been almost three weeks since I sent my resume in and a week since I called and left a message. There's still a chance, but chances are, I'm going to be crashing with my folks for several months and trying to find a job close to home or in Philly. Something transitional but good. Preferably with at least minimal health coverage.
And then, and then, and then.
I just needed to get on here and blah, blah, blah for a few minutes. Sorry for my incessant chatter. I'm just tired of people asking me what's next, because I don't have an answer.