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i've been tryin to think of what to get adrienne and andy for christmas. We have never gave each other gifts before, but i think that we're mature enough now and actually really love each other now.. its about time for that too.
I wish that i could find somebody that i can trust with everything. I hate this world these days, all people do is bitch and complain. I just had a really close friend tell me that he might not be alive for very long. It kills me that he would say something like that, everybody loves him soo much. He just doesn't seem to understand how much he'd be missed. He was telling me all these things about doing it, all i could do is listen- i didn't know what to say.. i've never been through that before and i hope that i don't. Maybe he's just had a bad day? Maybe him and his parents got into a fight? I just can't go to sleep knowin all of this that he just told me. I really wish that i could pick up tha phone right now and call somebody and talk to them, but that seems to never happen now. Ever since you move up to high school people think that they are too good for others, i found myself hangin out with so called "nerds" today in first block. I didn't care one bit what people thought. Maybe people need to get their heads out of their ass and realize that nobodys perfect and never will be. God, im startin to preach again.
I've gone 2 years with out a boyfriend. Do you know how proud of myself i am? I am so much more happy, but then i miss havin late night phone calls from tha ones that i liked. Yet, sometimes i get soo upset about the whole thing and i break down- i'm too young for this though, i shouldn't be stressin over boys yet. They are still supposed to have cooties.
Well i guess that i'm gonna sum this up and go to sleep. love you all*
I wish that i could find somebody that i can trust with everything. I hate this world these days, all people do is bitch and complain. I just had a really close friend tell me that he might not be alive for very long. It kills me that he would say something like that, everybody loves him soo much. He just doesn't seem to understand how much he'd be missed. He was telling me all these things about doing it, all i could do is listen- i didn't know what to say.. i've never been through that before and i hope that i don't. Maybe he's just had a bad day? Maybe him and his parents got into a fight? I just can't go to sleep knowin all of this that he just told me. I really wish that i could pick up tha phone right now and call somebody and talk to them, but that seems to never happen now. Ever since you move up to high school people think that they are too good for others, i found myself hangin out with so called "nerds" today in first block. I didn't care one bit what people thought. Maybe people need to get their heads out of their ass and realize that nobodys perfect and never will be. God, im startin to preach again.
I've gone 2 years with out a boyfriend. Do you know how proud of myself i am? I am so much more happy, but then i miss havin late night phone calls from tha ones that i liked. Yet, sometimes i get soo upset about the whole thing and i break down- i'm too young for this though, i shouldn't be stressin over boys yet. They are still supposed to have cooties.
Well i guess that i'm gonna sum this up and go to sleep. love you all*