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it was never supposed to be like this. we werent ready for this. but its done so we have to deal with it... i hate what i have become.. i hate that when im mad i have to say the most hurtful words that come to my mind. i hate that i complain about my job and my life when it isnt that bad... i need to pay more attention to jackie.. she needs all the support she can get from me... and i know that if i were to leave or if we were to break up she wouldnt make it on her own regardless of what she thinks. i hate that we are fighting about money and shit already. its ridiculous. im done being like this and im done fighting. im going to do whatever it takes to make her happy. she means the world to me. i love her... eh i have to work in like 3 hours. later