I'm young..and in lust with a gentleman.
We have a good thing going.Why do i have to go and mess it up right when i'm getting over you in the first place?I'm the one that should walk away and i've tried believe me i've tried.But you come back.You always do.And you are such a gentleman."No i'll get it" "No i'll drive" "you look beautiful today".And when your around,whatever i was feeling 2 seconds before you came totally disappears and i feel grand.But i remember why we can't be together then i think to myself why do i do this? What kind of person would put them self into a situation knowing what the outcome is? I'm ok with how we are right now.I know we are nothing more than friends but i feel closer to you than any of my other guy friends.Im comfortable.Im content.But i want it all.Im selfish.I want to be the one you write to every day when you leave,but i also know that things as well as feelings change.I also know over time things will progress into other interests and you may not be my one and only despite what im thinking right now,because im not thinking at all...or at least i tell myself that to bring some kind of comfort to being without.I'm just 17..and dramatic i guess.But aren't we all when we are young and in "lust"?