Stressful to Be Me
I know it's two weeks late for this to share but it was getting the better of me keeping it all to myself.
Well you see, we had this activity in one of my classes, PERSEF2.
It was a Stress Inventory and we had to answer it.
There were these stressors, ranging 6 months from the present, that you had to rate.
I've forgotten the legend of the numbers but this is about pretty much it,
0 as unapplicable up to 5 as very much.
Then you need to sum up all the ratings that you answered.
Now guess who topped the activity?
Yep, you got that right. It was ME.
With a result of 238, I topped off the preceding the second in line which was probably 115.
I also embarassed because it felt like every eye in the room were on me
as they looked and joked in disbelief.
I mean, sure. Who would've believed that? Even I was wondering.
I smiled at everybody, laughed with them, and tried to befriend them.
I looked and felt like I was oblivious to anything but happiness (Well, most of the time).
But who was I kidding? The Inventory hit the mark actually.
I am stressed. Stressed mostly about family and religion (according to it, and it got that right ).
It was right that I'm stressed about my dad, my mom, their relationship, how it affected me and my brother, and
how it affected our beliefs.
*sigh* It's like I was made to face what I've been trying to forget and run away from.
I really felt uncomfortable but it was a good thing our professor didn't delve in to my problems.
Good thing though that Nicolette was there and laughed it all out with her that I topped it.
Because if she hadn't, I think I would've had a breakdown inside.
Well you see, we had this activity in one of my classes, PERSEF2.
It was a Stress Inventory and we had to answer it.
There were these stressors, ranging 6 months from the present, that you had to rate.
I've forgotten the legend of the numbers but this is about pretty much it,
0 as unapplicable up to 5 as very much.
Then you need to sum up all the ratings that you answered.
Now guess who topped the activity?
Yep, you got that right. It was ME.
With a result of 238, I topped off the preceding the second in line which was probably 115.
I also embarassed because it felt like every eye in the room were on me
as they looked and joked in disbelief.
I mean, sure. Who would've believed that? Even I was wondering.
I smiled at everybody, laughed with them, and tried to befriend them.
I looked and felt like I was oblivious to anything but happiness (Well, most of the time).
But who was I kidding? The Inventory hit the mark actually.
I am stressed. Stressed mostly about family and religion (according to it, and it got that right ).
It was right that I'm stressed about my dad, my mom, their relationship, how it affected me and my brother, and
how it affected our beliefs.
*sigh* It's like I was made to face what I've been trying to forget and run away from.
I really felt uncomfortable but it was a good thing our professor didn't delve in to my problems.
Good thing though that Nicolette was there and laughed it all out with her that I topped it.
Because if she hadn't, I think I would've had a breakdown inside.