...your eyes are the brighest of all the colors, i dont wanna ever love another
youll always be my thunder, so bring on the rain...
just had a great night out with jeans. which...i really needed. life has been crappy lately.
ive just been feeling really down and lonely lately. a lot of things have changed. a lot. if you had told me before the summer that life would be this different, i would have told you that you were full of shit. a lot of really important people have jumped ship, and i havent really been sure how to deal with it. ive tried a lot of different coping, but in the end, i know that everything happens for a reason. i really do have some amazing people in my life that really really care about me and i am in love with a pretty wonderful man.
im hoping that this leap of faith im taking...this new trust and love that im putting myself into is going to be it for me. i mean, god knows i shouldnt say that because its probably a jinx, but mikey and i are wonderful together. his has the brighest most beautiful eyes and a smile that lights up my life. we laugh together...we have great conversations...we tackle whatever life throws at us. mike helps me see the positives in my life and he is supportive and has talked me off the ledge many many times (not literally of course). im the kind of person who freaks out in times of chaos (like getting abandoned in a rental situation, having my car window smashed in...etc), and mike is the kind of person who helps me take life one step at a time.
if i had one wish right now, it would be to cuddle in bed with him while he brushes my hair until i fall asleep.
its hard right now, because we are so far away from each other. its hard when i want to kiss him that he is 3 hours away. its hard when i want to be in his arms...and i know that he is 200 miles from me. but im working towards another life. a life that combines the best part of my life down here...and the future that i am building for myself. i cant wait. july seems like a lifetime away...but its something to work towards.
im lucky to have the great friends that i have and the people that care about me. no matter how bad my situation gets, or how many car windows get broken, how many friendships break, or how tight money is...i still have people that mean the world to me. a
nd ive really seen peoples true colors these past few months...some...darker than i thought...but others...well others shine like the light of a thousand suns.
just had a great night out with jeans. which...i really needed. life has been crappy lately.
ive just been feeling really down and lonely lately. a lot of things have changed. a lot. if you had told me before the summer that life would be this different, i would have told you that you were full of shit. a lot of really important people have jumped ship, and i havent really been sure how to deal with it. ive tried a lot of different coping, but in the end, i know that everything happens for a reason. i really do have some amazing people in my life that really really care about me and i am in love with a pretty wonderful man.
im hoping that this leap of faith im taking...this new trust and love that im putting myself into is going to be it for me. i mean, god knows i shouldnt say that because its probably a jinx, but mikey and i are wonderful together. his has the brighest most beautiful eyes and a smile that lights up my life. we laugh together...we have great conversations...we tackle whatever life throws at us. mike helps me see the positives in my life and he is supportive and has talked me off the ledge many many times (not literally of course). im the kind of person who freaks out in times of chaos (like getting abandoned in a rental situation, having my car window smashed in...etc), and mike is the kind of person who helps me take life one step at a time.
if i had one wish right now, it would be to cuddle in bed with him while he brushes my hair until i fall asleep.
its hard right now, because we are so far away from each other. its hard when i want to kiss him that he is 3 hours away. its hard when i want to be in his arms...and i know that he is 200 miles from me. but im working towards another life. a life that combines the best part of my life down here...and the future that i am building for myself. i cant wait. july seems like a lifetime away...but its something to work towards.
im lucky to have the great friends that i have and the people that care about me. no matter how bad my situation gets, or how many car windows get broken, how many friendships break, or how tight money is...i still have people that mean the world to me. a
nd ive really seen peoples true colors these past few months...some...darker than i thought...but others...well others shine like the light of a thousand suns.