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it's funny how we screw ourselves over.
how we refuse to learn from our mistakes, and never listen to all those cliche things that people tell us.
we think those cliches don't matter because nothing is ever that normal, or that easy.
we all like to think our lives are harder than they are. that they are harder than everyone elses.
when truly...there are starving children in africa, there are people slaving away in sweatshops, there are genocides in places like darfur.
we all have it so easy, and we take everything for granted.
and this isn't me preaching to all of you, it's me preaching to myself as well.
for the past month i've had many great things placed in front of me.
one that i'm currently helplessly watching fall away.
all because i thought it was too good to be true, to easy to actualy be a part of my life.
i refused to accept that this good thing was happening to me, so i tried to make it not as good, just so i could believe it.
it had to be bad enough to be real.
but it was real all along.
and everything i did didn't help me realize it, i realized it after it was too late.
hopefully a turn of events will come, that will change all of this, or at least help me through it.
but either way, it gave me the strength to do some things i should've done a long time ago.
"i can fly
but i want his wings
i can shine even in the darkness
but i crave the light that he brings
revel in the songs that he sings
my angel gabriel
i can love
but i need his heart
i am strong even on my own
but from him i never want to part
he's been there since the very start
my angel gabriel"
how we refuse to learn from our mistakes, and never listen to all those cliche things that people tell us.
we think those cliches don't matter because nothing is ever that normal, or that easy.
we all like to think our lives are harder than they are. that they are harder than everyone elses.
when truly...there are starving children in africa, there are people slaving away in sweatshops, there are genocides in places like darfur.
we all have it so easy, and we take everything for granted.
and this isn't me preaching to all of you, it's me preaching to myself as well.
for the past month i've had many great things placed in front of me.
one that i'm currently helplessly watching fall away.
all because i thought it was too good to be true, to easy to actualy be a part of my life.
i refused to accept that this good thing was happening to me, so i tried to make it not as good, just so i could believe it.
it had to be bad enough to be real.
but it was real all along.
and everything i did didn't help me realize it, i realized it after it was too late.
hopefully a turn of events will come, that will change all of this, or at least help me through it.
but either way, it gave me the strength to do some things i should've done a long time ago.
"i can fly
but i want his wings
i can shine even in the darkness
but i crave the light that he brings
revel in the songs that he sings
my angel gabriel
i can love
but i need his heart
i am strong even on my own
but from him i never want to part
he's been there since the very start
my angel gabriel"