I miss you . . .Nicole
I'm sooo tired right now. I've gone out Thursday-Saturday to the bars just so I can get away from all this stress. I have a million projects and two midterms next week. FUCK! I was sitting here doing my homework and Julie sends me this link. It was the song Nicole wrote before she died. She didn't die from a disease or anything, but she committed suicide. I've heard it all. People telling me she was selfish because she chose the easy way out. Whether this is true or not the point is, she was a wonderful person who put everyone in her life first. Nicole was one of the my best friends. She lives down the street from me and I have to drive past her house everyday before getting on the freeway. I don't even see her parents outside anymore. The time I did see them they had smiles on their faces. It made me feel good because it was the first time I saw them smile since Nicole died.
I remember the day of her funeral. It was such a sad day. Seeing her family and friends in such pain. Although, I did cry at her funeral I tried to control myself in order to be strong for my other friends. I couldn't believe some of the looks me and my friend got. They acted as if we didn't know her. She wasn't just someone I knew for a year or two, but my whole life. We grew up together. We use to walk to school together when we were kids. Although, we stopped talking in high school we still managed to say hi and smile at each other in the halls. I wish I had kept in contact with her more and given her the advice that maybe she needed to hear. Below are links to her memorial website and the organization they created to help raise awareness about teen suicide.
"Support this cause to raise awareness about teen sucides"
http://www.coliescloset.org/
http://www.coliesmemorial.com/
---- Highlights this week ----
+ Job and Internship Fair @ SJSU
+ Clothes shopping for the fair
+ Hanging out w/friends from Turlock @ Mission Ale
+ Among other things
I remember the day of her funeral. It was such a sad day. Seeing her family and friends in such pain. Although, I did cry at her funeral I tried to control myself in order to be strong for my other friends. I couldn't believe some of the looks me and my friend got. They acted as if we didn't know her. She wasn't just someone I knew for a year or two, but my whole life. We grew up together. We use to walk to school together when we were kids. Although, we stopped talking in high school we still managed to say hi and smile at each other in the halls. I wish I had kept in contact with her more and given her the advice that maybe she needed to hear. Below are links to her memorial website and the organization they created to help raise awareness about teen suicide.
"Support this cause to raise awareness about teen sucides"
http://www.coliescloset.org/
http://www.coliesmemorial.com/
---- Highlights this week ----
+ Job and Internship Fair @ SJSU
+ Clothes shopping for the fair
+ Hanging out w/friends from Turlock @ Mission Ale
+ Among other things