Dating
So now I'm dating... Woah, who would've ever guessed that after so long, I actually got to date? heh...
But you know what? I'm really, really happy.
It's like a home away from home, you know? It's like how you feel really comfortable and relaxed and at peace at home. For me, it's the same way when I'm with her. I don't feel like I have to say any fancy, magic words. I don't feel like I have to put on an act (if the need ever comes up). I just feel like I can be myself.
And everything related to her is perfect as well. Her family reminds me of my mom and my sister. While nobody can ever take the place of my mom and sister, her family comes pretty darn close. I never knew what it was like to watch a couple get old together and still care for each other. I'm slowly learning now. Even though they're in their 60s, Rev. and Mrs. Lau still HELLA care about each other. She's always by his side, and he always takes care of him. I just sit there and stare in awe, because I've never seen anything so impressive as this.
It's weird. I don't see her as "my girl," or something personal that I get protective over. It's not like, "Ohhh...now that she's my girl, I get her all to myself!" or something like that. I think I don't act that way because I don't think I deserve her. I honestly don't fully agree with her, and I don't really see what she sees in me.
She might just be the one. I don't know...but I hope so. Don't know what God has in plan for us in the future. Maybe we're gonna get married, maybe not.
All I know is that I'm happy. I seriously don't know how else to say it. And the interesting thing is, I'm not giddy, I'm not ecstatic. Hmm...actually, I don't even think "happy" is the right word.
I'm content. This is all I need. I don't need any flowers or money or gifts or anything. Just her being next to me and me being able to hold her hand. That's all I want.