random thoughts...(marriage)
so what else besides Thailand?
heh...I had a pretty tite New Year's Eve. Went over to FElix's house and I watched all my high school church guy friends play network games with some of Felix's youth kids from PBC. Pretty tite time. Then Matt and I debated for like 10 minutes at 3 in the morning which one of us would get married first. Cause dang, Felix is THIRTY-EIGHT now and he's still single. ANd Jacob's what...24? 25? now working on his Master's/PhD @ Stanford. John, Matt, Daniel are all 23ish and Thomas, Ethan and me are all 22. Heh. We're destined to be a group of bachelor's...hahah. =)
Well, Matt believed that Jacob had a good chance of getting married first while Thomas thought that I'd prob be the first one. Me...honestly...hmmm...I'm not sure who I'd pick as the first to go. Felix...hahah...forget FElix. As far as I'm concerned, it's all in God's hands now.. =) hehe..j/p. John...eh, he's too hard on himself. He could get a pretty good girl if he went out more. Daniel...eh, he's gotta stop focusing only on Jewish things...gr. >_< Especially since he's 15/16 Chinese!! Thomas...hehe...honestly, he might be, but he's...I dunno...he's Thomas, you know? Matt, Ethan...heh...I doubt it cause they'd hafta get Renee's ok and their parents' okay first =). Bleh...so is it really going to be me? Eeehhh...I dunno, and I seriously don't wanna think about it. hahah. =)
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But actually, that's what crossed my mind during this break. This one day, my family went out to eat with this other family. Okay, so this family has this daughter. And honestly...heh...if I HAD to choose right now which girl I'd marry, I'd pick this girl. Cause I know she's a solid Christian, good family, good upbringing, good morals. A tad bit too sassy along with that girlish attitude thing...and she's still gotta mature over time, but she is still pretty young.
I took a good look at her over the meal, and I think something started to change. Cause I've weighed the pros and cons of all the girls that would be prospective wives, and mathematically...she makes the most sense because of all the areas. heh...that's right, here comes my math mind again... =)
But you know, she's not quite the right person to marry, you know? I mean, I'm not saying that she has flaws or isn't perfect enough or anything...heh. I guess she's still a teenager and that's cool. God isn't finished with her yet. And then I realized, "Why the heck am I jumping the gun and speculating about all this?" Cause it dawned on me that God's got the perfect person already matched out for me (solidly supporting predestination here...hehe) and it might be this girl or it might not.
Okay, honestly...it'd be nice if it was this girl...heh. And it's really weird. I think my marriage is gonna be a combination of American + Chinese notions of romance. Cause I'm not a very outwardly "gushy" person. I rarely say "I love you." Hahaha...Janice can testify to that. I think I said it once to her throughout our who thingie...and I almost had a heart attack saying the phrase. =)
But marriage isn't something that's supposed to just "take place," like a lot of Asian couples my parents' generation view it. I think I'd be the type that would fall madly in love with my wife, but it wouldn't be the type that would make me buy her chocolates and make mushy cards or fluffy cute dogs. It'd be the type where I wouldn't be able to sleep at night and end up softly cryin cause I can't believe how good God's been, you know? I mean, for me...givin a hug or holdin somebody is a LOT for me...heh...but I never do it without feeling that I'm FULLY in love with them.
eehhh...okay, that's enough of me and my love life update. =)
heh...I had a pretty tite New Year's Eve. Went over to FElix's house and I watched all my high school church guy friends play network games with some of Felix's youth kids from PBC. Pretty tite time. Then Matt and I debated for like 10 minutes at 3 in the morning which one of us would get married first. Cause dang, Felix is THIRTY-EIGHT now and he's still single. ANd Jacob's what...24? 25? now working on his Master's/PhD @ Stanford. John, Matt, Daniel are all 23ish and Thomas, Ethan and me are all 22. Heh. We're destined to be a group of bachelor's...hahah. =)
Well, Matt believed that Jacob had a good chance of getting married first while Thomas thought that I'd prob be the first one. Me...honestly...hmmm...I'm not sure who I'd pick as the first to go. Felix...hahah...forget FElix. As far as I'm concerned, it's all in God's hands now.. =) hehe..j/p. John...eh, he's too hard on himself. He could get a pretty good girl if he went out more. Daniel...eh, he's gotta stop focusing only on Jewish things...gr. >_< Especially since he's 15/16 Chinese!! Thomas...hehe...honestly, he might be, but he's...I dunno...he's Thomas, you know? Matt, Ethan...heh...I doubt it cause they'd hafta get Renee's ok and their parents' okay first =). Bleh...so is it really going to be me? Eeehhh...I dunno, and I seriously don't wanna think about it. hahah. =)
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But actually, that's what crossed my mind during this break. This one day, my family went out to eat with this other family. Okay, so this family has this daughter. And honestly...heh...if I HAD to choose right now which girl I'd marry, I'd pick this girl. Cause I know she's a solid Christian, good family, good upbringing, good morals. A tad bit too sassy along with that girlish attitude thing...and she's still gotta mature over time, but she is still pretty young.
I took a good look at her over the meal, and I think something started to change. Cause I've weighed the pros and cons of all the girls that would be prospective wives, and mathematically...she makes the most sense because of all the areas. heh...that's right, here comes my math mind again... =)
But you know, she's not quite the right person to marry, you know? I mean, I'm not saying that she has flaws or isn't perfect enough or anything...heh. I guess she's still a teenager and that's cool. God isn't finished with her yet. And then I realized, "Why the heck am I jumping the gun and speculating about all this?" Cause it dawned on me that God's got the perfect person already matched out for me (solidly supporting predestination here...hehe) and it might be this girl or it might not.
Okay, honestly...it'd be nice if it was this girl...heh. And it's really weird. I think my marriage is gonna be a combination of American + Chinese notions of romance. Cause I'm not a very outwardly "gushy" person. I rarely say "I love you." Hahaha...Janice can testify to that. I think I said it once to her throughout our who thingie...and I almost had a heart attack saying the phrase. =)
But marriage isn't something that's supposed to just "take place," like a lot of Asian couples my parents' generation view it. I think I'd be the type that would fall madly in love with my wife, but it wouldn't be the type that would make me buy her chocolates and make mushy cards or fluffy cute dogs. It'd be the type where I wouldn't be able to sleep at night and end up softly cryin cause I can't believe how good God's been, you know? I mean, for me...givin a hug or holdin somebody is a LOT for me...heh...but I never do it without feeling that I'm FULLY in love with them.
eehhh...okay, that's enough of me and my love life update. =)