:-( sad & lost...
i don't know what it is, but i find myself so lost and spacy lately, evertime i stop doing something, i start to think of him... i can't understand why i feel this way, it's not that he's this great guy, or he's everything that i want in a man, but the total opposite... why do i care so much? why do i hurt so much? why? why? i can't seem to understand where all these emotions are coming from... i can't seem to get myself to leave him behind.. and yet, i can't see myself going forward without him in my life... what the F am I to do?? I need help, i so need help, i'm going crazy with these emotions... i don't even know if he truly loves me or if his feelings have changed since... i don't know... he's so insensitive, i don't know if i can handle that... uuuugggghhhhh!!!!