My Exes and Oh's
Had my first hallucination from my medication today.
This morning I couldn't wake up and I couldn't seperate sleep from reality. There was a moment where I felt my eyes were wide open but they were still closed. I could not stay awake no matter how hard I tried. I heard noises in the room in a way that I would only hear if I were awake and alert. I thought I had wet the bed because I believed I was actually up and using the bathroom- which hasn't happened in many years. In a panic, I checked the comforter I slept on top of but found nothing.I was able to go to the bathroom but when I came back to the bed I hit the mattress and struggled waking up.
I thought I saw a mardi gras mask on an exact and real spot on Jenna's wall. I could only see the wall in this great of detail if my eyes were open but I don't know if they were. it was an accurate image, however, everything except for the mask which began fluctuating and moving rapidly, flipping over and under up and down as if it were alive, not just like a wind were blowing it. I noted there were no windows open and no source of wind or air whatsoever to make this colorful, bright, and supposedly evil mask move. it was terrifying. I tried to sit up quickly but was still paralyzed with tiredness. I kept struggling to wake up but when I couldn't decided it was my body telling me to get more rest and go back to sleep.
Every time I tried to go back to sleep I was jolted awake and slightly upward by the feeling that Jenna was sitting because I felt a prominent di[ in the bed everytime I tried to go to sleep. I kept feeling a distinct dip in the bed and because my legs were partially off I kept feeling like I was going to fall off. Then I swear I thought I saw Jenna leave the room with my blanket wrapped around her shoulders trailing behind her, so I that "confirmed" she had sat in the bed and walked off with the blanket.
The dip in the bed thing really scared me and that when I was determined to physically getting out of bed. I believe there may have been a few more hallucinations but these were the main and most consuming ones. I also had strange and terrifying dreams and at the end of them, where I tried to wake up, was where the mardi gras mask took its place.
This morning I couldn't wake up and I couldn't seperate sleep from reality. There was a moment where I felt my eyes were wide open but they were still closed. I could not stay awake no matter how hard I tried. I heard noises in the room in a way that I would only hear if I were awake and alert. I thought I had wet the bed because I believed I was actually up and using the bathroom- which hasn't happened in many years. In a panic, I checked the comforter I slept on top of but found nothing.I was able to go to the bathroom but when I came back to the bed I hit the mattress and struggled waking up.
I thought I saw a mardi gras mask on an exact and real spot on Jenna's wall. I could only see the wall in this great of detail if my eyes were open but I don't know if they were. it was an accurate image, however, everything except for the mask which began fluctuating and moving rapidly, flipping over and under up and down as if it were alive, not just like a wind were blowing it. I noted there were no windows open and no source of wind or air whatsoever to make this colorful, bright, and supposedly evil mask move. it was terrifying. I tried to sit up quickly but was still paralyzed with tiredness. I kept struggling to wake up but when I couldn't decided it was my body telling me to get more rest and go back to sleep.
Every time I tried to go back to sleep I was jolted awake and slightly upward by the feeling that Jenna was sitting because I felt a prominent di[ in the bed everytime I tried to go to sleep. I kept feeling a distinct dip in the bed and because my legs were partially off I kept feeling like I was going to fall off. Then I swear I thought I saw Jenna leave the room with my blanket wrapped around her shoulders trailing behind her, so I that "confirmed" she had sat in the bed and walked off with the blanket.
The dip in the bed thing really scared me and that when I was determined to physically getting out of bed. I believe there may have been a few more hallucinations but these were the main and most consuming ones. I also had strange and terrifying dreams and at the end of them, where I tried to wake up, was where the mardi gras mask took its place.