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I don't feel loved. I am sorry to that folks. I know that you do but some of you or all of you do. I am still on the job hunt and trying to get that license. I am fed up!!!!! My dad called about 5 mins. ago to ask what did I do all day. I washed clothes,ate,drank water, and looked for a job and he got really upset with me. I hate that I am home all day. I am sorry but I can't bare to cry because a) I believe that my parents are disappointed in me b) all my friends are away at college c) my grandmother is embrassed of me because I don't have a job and I am not in school. I have problems/issues. 8 more days.....! I don't know what I want or what to do for my birthday! Nobody calls me.. I am ususally the one who calls and annoys everybody by calling them. I'm sick of myselg and don't like anything of myself. I know that isn't the way to look at myself and that is the extemely the low slef-esteem talking.
My weekend was great. I went to my cousin's 18th party. I got to see some of my cousin's that I really miss. ( Steven, Sue, and Anna) My mom and I worked so hard for her party. But I was really angered by those people who were serving the food. I swear that one of those servers had a crush on me because he kept staring me down.
Apparently.. I am feeling better now as though I am calmed down but it is all going to start back again!