I'm so crushed, man
Right now, I just dont know what's left for me anymore. I wish that I had something to hold onto.
My dad told me that being alone is the only thing that I can have right now considering i'm running with 2 part time jobs and i'm still in school and in night school. I started telling him how i felt about Devin and he told me that he thinks that Devin's hiding something from me. I think he's right but i dont know what that could be.
I told him how I talked to Devin the other night and how he said that he "cared" about me and how i felt like he doesn't. I told him about how i'm the one who's always calling Devin and he never calls me anymore.
He thinks it's just a fling. I honestly think that he's right. I mean seriously, Devin is the type of guy who would do that type of thing. I mean he was deff. too much of a pussy to tell me that he was fucking Brittany Loon. I would be ashamed too, every guy has had that. I dont know though...I mean I had to hear it from Brittany's ex that her and Dev were "together" or whatever it was.
Right now I just wish that I never met him. I wish that he'll never get a job and he'll end up moving back to Auburn cuz I really dont want to ever see him again. I just never want to look back at him and have my mistakes thrown in my face like that.
I dont know...i'm just sick and tired of always going back to him and thinking that it'll work. But nope, it's just for a little booty call.
That's okay...I think I need a break from all this relationship bullshit. I'm just gonna keep in touch with some "close friends" that I was seeing before me and Dev got together. But that's all in the past..I'm done...
Later
My dad told me that being alone is the only thing that I can have right now considering i'm running with 2 part time jobs and i'm still in school and in night school. I started telling him how i felt about Devin and he told me that he thinks that Devin's hiding something from me. I think he's right but i dont know what that could be.
I told him how I talked to Devin the other night and how he said that he "cared" about me and how i felt like he doesn't. I told him about how i'm the one who's always calling Devin and he never calls me anymore.
He thinks it's just a fling. I honestly think that he's right. I mean seriously, Devin is the type of guy who would do that type of thing. I mean he was deff. too much of a pussy to tell me that he was fucking Brittany Loon. I would be ashamed too, every guy has had that. I dont know though...I mean I had to hear it from Brittany's ex that her and Dev were "together" or whatever it was.
Right now I just wish that I never met him. I wish that he'll never get a job and he'll end up moving back to Auburn cuz I really dont want to ever see him again. I just never want to look back at him and have my mistakes thrown in my face like that.
I dont know...i'm just sick and tired of always going back to him and thinking that it'll work. But nope, it's just for a little booty call.
That's okay...I think I need a break from all this relationship bullshit. I'm just gonna keep in touch with some "close friends" that I was seeing before me and Dev got together. But that's all in the past..I'm done...
Later