change is good
There are some things that no matter how hard you try, they will never be the same. A prime example of this is my relationship with him. In the beginning it was easy and fun and now it is nothing less than complicated and frustrating. Do I love him? Yes Will I still have feelings for him for a while? Yes..but then again I don't think I could ever do it again. He has changed and so have I and neither of us are committed enough to it any more. I do not trust him what so ever and that is a big problem. I know there are tons of girls he talks to on a regular basis and even when we were dating he pushed it. When you tell somebody you love them that means you only want to be with them, at least in my mind. Did I make mistakes in the past? Yes- but did I change? I sure as hell tried to and I think I did a decent job. When you don't talk to someone for days bc you are "too busy" you obviously don't want it that bad. He is not willing to change in the areas I want him to and so he obviously does not care that much. I think he is scared to totally let go of me in fear he'll never feel like he once did for me for someone else, but now it's time to move on. Just be done and over with. It pisses me off also that he claims to want me in his life still but makes no effort to do so. I think cutting off contact with him is the only way to go. It will suck now but later it will make things easier. I have an amazing new boy who I think things are really going to work out with and I don't want my feelings for him to hold me back anymore. I am DONE. Mark my words. From this day on...NO MORE HIM!!!