Well, well, well.
Welp. It's monday, and this past weekend has not been the best, OR the easiest. My cousin, Colin, has to go to Iraq, as I'm sure many of you reading this have heard only a million times. This past weekend I said goodbye to him, which is so hard for me to do. Met his wife, Emily. (still feels weird saying that..)Well I had already met her once before, but not really talked to her. So, that was saturday, and sunday I was supposed to get to see him again, so that I could offically say goodbye...but go figure, that didn't happen. But i'm NOOT mad at him at all. He had stayed up until 5:30 the night before, and had a lot of things to do that day. So, I started crying..tried not to, but the tears just kinda kept falling. Then my mom called my grandma's house, and she was like "are you crying?" and I started sobbing. My grandma rushed arond the corner and put her arm around me and told me not to cry...bleh. i hate crying infront of people. Oh well...When I'm crying, and people talk to me about it - it makes me cry even more. But okay, moving on. Colin felt really bad about not being able to see me on sunday. He kept saying "are you sure it's okay? I don't want you to be mad at me.." and he said he'd call me before he left for Iraq. Pretty emotional weekend for me. Saturday I called Kourtney, and we talked for about 3 1/2 hours. Give or take. After I got off the phone with her, I started listening to seether and looking at pictures of Colin and I from my digital camera. I cried a bit..Not much, though, thank God. Oh well. It was kindof interesting watching Jeepers Creepers 2 at about 2 in the morning with my dad falling asleep. Made me rewind about half the movie so he could actuall see it. Lil punk. lol. It is pretty cool pretending KC is holding me, though..I do it all the time..hehe. I Love Him So Much! I really don't know what I did to deserve him, but I'm so glad that I did it.. He's so perfect. I just don't get why he loves me.....at all. I think about him all the time. He's my life - he's everything. He makes my heart complete. My world just crashes at the thought of losing him...I'd be so lost without him. One of these days he'll realize how amazing he is and leave me for someone he deserves...He deserves so much better than me. How could someone that perfect stand being stuck with me? I don't understand........I guess I'm just left wondering. But, as long as he has my heart, I know it wont be broken.