I'm up early w/ nothing to do
Yea, I'm still alive and doing well. That last post I made has really helped me, yay. Like really helped me, that's a great perspective to have, and at the moment it's kicking me in the ass because I have to make a huge decision. I have this incredible opportunity waving its arms right in front of me. I've turned it down twice yet it keeps coming back. Is it coming back because I really should take it?? I want to, I'd love to, I don't know if I can afford to because I'd have to take off work, meaning I'd lose my regular day off. But in the end of it all, I could be making boookuuu bucks, like really a fucking lot for very little work. (no it's nothing to do with stripping or sex or anything that you're probably thinking) I can possibly have the opportunity again...in a year...but who wants to wait a year? Agh, don't know what to do.
Also, can someone please give me dating tips, not being single for very long in the past many many years has really screwed me over. So far, I'm getting them from the girl I work with who is only 17...but it's good advice and I totally love her for it.
uhh...yea so I had these plans ya see, and well they just aren't working out, seems to always happen like that. As soon as I decide to stop caring, just go have fun, and not worry about the stupid boys... Which totally makes sense because you always find what you're looking for when you're not looking for it. (pretty sure I've said that before, but I've learned from my mistakes, hopefully, and no i'm not calling someone a mistake, just the crap I did) I appreciate the experience I had.
I'm totally realizing my posts have to be so difficult to understand, I don't actually make sentences most of the time and it's all being typed how it is in my head, totally random and uncut. But I'm not sorry cuz you don't have to read it. You should be grateful that I'm giving you this opportunity to actually see how things work in my head.
Back on to the previous paragraph...where was I going with that...oh yea, I have a crush, haha. I'm still working on figuring him out, yay for my learnings of psychology (that are helping more than i expected). He's a hottie, even more so without a shirt, YUM!
oh crap, work is soon and i'm not dressed...