Random Emo Updates, about Old Problems
MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS... SORRY I MISSED IT! My Christmas was grand, as I hope all or your's were.
So it's been about a good 6 days since I have posted. Well I don't know what to say except Mike disrupts my online/posting time. I'm always with him, always fricken making him happy. And now I have realized that my post last time was about the same thing I'm going to be talking about. How I always try to make Mike happy and he never tries to do anything... never. Unless it's in his favor. Like... hmm on Thursday night I had plans to go sledding with some people but when Mike picked me up from work and I mentioned the sledding time (we had a blast last year so I figured he'd want to go) he got all fricken pissy and bitched about how cold it was. So I'm sitting here in the car feeling dumb because I was trying to make plans for us so we wouldn't have to sit and be bored all night. I don't fucking get him.
Then we were fine for couple days, I got him some hot shizzle for Christmas. I got him a sweater from PacSun and some Sexy For Him 2 cologne from Victoria's Secret. Even though we kind of said we weren't going to get eachother anything. His reason being he didn't have money, and mine being because I didn't want to, when in reality I did. So you know, I tell Chels he opened his present and she asked what he got me and I say nothing, I wasn't mad about it. But Chels feels that I should be. As we as other people. Eh, I guess I can kind of see where I have the right to be mad, but I'm not. So I'm just going to go to Target and get the jacket myself... ha! Finally, well if it's even still there.
But then all of the sudden out of the blue of the nice time we've been having I got sick when he went up to his cottage for not even a day and I got really sore. My whole body is sore but mostly my boobs, well, that is because I shall be getting my period soon. So today I didn't want to get out of my bed. I had Jenniece, Nielsen, Huebner, and Chels come over. At like 2 something Huebner and Nielsen left because Huebner had to work and ah, they were doing something to Nielsen's car at MasterLube. So then it was just us 3 girls and we were having a good time. I had to work from 4-7 so yeah. We all left, to do what we had to do. And the Jenniec was supposed to pick me up from work, but instead Michael did. No biggy I guess right? We go to Perkin's to meet Chels and Heubner and I'm listening to my voicemail from Jenniece about how pissy Michael was being to her and how he went to Ben's house? I don't know it kind of made me mad, so I was in a worse mood seeing as how I didn't feel good. So we were at Perkin's and Nielsen was driving me nuts, I don't know why but the things he talks about or the little remarks he makes... ahh I don't know. So I said that I wanted to rent movies for last that night to watch before I sleep. And Nielsen was all... I don't want to go there. So I said ok then I'll walk there, and hes fricken being an asshole and hes like, oh well it's cold outside. Uhh yeah I feel bad that he had to pick me up and that he drives me around alot, but fucking, I pay for all the shit we do! I've given him gas money, and if he didn't want to hang out with me, or drive me... he doesn't have to. I have a mother. So then he told me that he was just going to drop me off at my house and leave. When I fricken wanted to hang out with him. I fucking said I didn't want to go sledding because I knew if I did go that he would be mad.
I DON'T GO SLEDDING BECAUSE IF I DO I KNOW THAT MIKE WILL GET MAD. 1 POINT FOR MAKING MIKE HAPPY!
That goes along with about 50830083423 other stupid reasons I have to make Mike happy.
So I'm sitting at my house eating gross tuna because I'm hungry and I'm sore and not talkitive. So we play Yahtzee then we get in a really good mood and we are fine again. YES! I love when we aren't fighting. So we come into the computer room after 2 games of Yahtzee (both dominated by yours truly) and we sit on the comp. Then all the sudden his phone rings... and it's a girl but he was talking to his Aunt before so I didn't think anything about it at first. I'm chilling you know until he gets off the phone and ask who it was because he was on the phone longer than I think I woudld on the phone if I were talking to my Aunt. He replies to me that he was talking to someone he works with. I ask who, because remember, it sounded like a girl. And he says Julie, so I just leave for a second not thinking much about it and I realize that hes leaving early to go and hang out with people he works with. I ask what she wanted and hes like to talk, and I figure out shes who hes going to be hanging out with. I don't instantly think that hes going to be cheating with me, it just gets me mad that I fucking waste all my time and put shit on the line to make him happy and he does nothing for me. Nothing. So then he tells me not to worry because shes "cool" fucking if I hung out with anyone from my work instead of hanging out with him, doesn't matter what the sex is, he would fucking cut me up in little pieces then shove me into the wall to hide me. And if it was a guy, he would probably kill me, the guy... and whoever else he doesn't like. So fucking I was pissed. Then after he mentioned cheating on me... that was when I actually thought about it, it hadn't even crossed my mind yet. Then I was pissed, I didn't even want him to touch me.
We didn't resolve it, he left without a hug, or anything else. It's his fucking fault.
Nothing EVER gets resolved and I'm sick of it.
He should of been gone already.
I should of broken up with him.
He fucking PLANNED out cheating on me.
But yet, somehow I'm still going out with him?
I don't get it.
He makes me feel... ugh I don't even know!
Ashley Nicole
So it's been about a good 6 days since I have posted. Well I don't know what to say except Mike disrupts my online/posting time. I'm always with him, always fricken making him happy. And now I have realized that my post last time was about the same thing I'm going to be talking about. How I always try to make Mike happy and he never tries to do anything... never. Unless it's in his favor. Like... hmm on Thursday night I had plans to go sledding with some people but when Mike picked me up from work and I mentioned the sledding time (we had a blast last year so I figured he'd want to go) he got all fricken pissy and bitched about how cold it was. So I'm sitting here in the car feeling dumb because I was trying to make plans for us so we wouldn't have to sit and be bored all night. I don't fucking get him.
Then we were fine for couple days, I got him some hot shizzle for Christmas. I got him a sweater from PacSun and some Sexy For Him 2 cologne from Victoria's Secret. Even though we kind of said we weren't going to get eachother anything. His reason being he didn't have money, and mine being because I didn't want to, when in reality I did. So you know, I tell Chels he opened his present and she asked what he got me and I say nothing, I wasn't mad about it. But Chels feels that I should be. As we as other people. Eh, I guess I can kind of see where I have the right to be mad, but I'm not. So I'm just going to go to Target and get the jacket myself... ha! Finally, well if it's even still there.
But then all of the sudden out of the blue of the nice time we've been having I got sick when he went up to his cottage for not even a day and I got really sore. My whole body is sore but mostly my boobs, well, that is because I shall be getting my period soon. So today I didn't want to get out of my bed. I had Jenniece, Nielsen, Huebner, and Chels come over. At like 2 something Huebner and Nielsen left because Huebner had to work and ah, they were doing something to Nielsen's car at MasterLube. So then it was just us 3 girls and we were having a good time. I had to work from 4-7 so yeah. We all left, to do what we had to do. And the Jenniec was supposed to pick me up from work, but instead Michael did. No biggy I guess right? We go to Perkin's to meet Chels and Heubner and I'm listening to my voicemail from Jenniece about how pissy Michael was being to her and how he went to Ben's house? I don't know it kind of made me mad, so I was in a worse mood seeing as how I didn't feel good. So we were at Perkin's and Nielsen was driving me nuts, I don't know why but the things he talks about or the little remarks he makes... ahh I don't know. So I said that I wanted to rent movies for last that night to watch before I sleep. And Nielsen was all... I don't want to go there. So I said ok then I'll walk there, and hes fricken being an asshole and hes like, oh well it's cold outside. Uhh yeah I feel bad that he had to pick me up and that he drives me around alot, but fucking, I pay for all the shit we do! I've given him gas money, and if he didn't want to hang out with me, or drive me... he doesn't have to. I have a mother. So then he told me that he was just going to drop me off at my house and leave. When I fricken wanted to hang out with him. I fucking said I didn't want to go sledding because I knew if I did go that he would be mad.
I DON'T GO SLEDDING BECAUSE IF I DO I KNOW THAT MIKE WILL GET MAD. 1 POINT FOR MAKING MIKE HAPPY!
That goes along with about 50830083423 other stupid reasons I have to make Mike happy.
So I'm sitting at my house eating gross tuna because I'm hungry and I'm sore and not talkitive. So we play Yahtzee then we get in a really good mood and we are fine again. YES! I love when we aren't fighting. So we come into the computer room after 2 games of Yahtzee (both dominated by yours truly) and we sit on the comp. Then all the sudden his phone rings... and it's a girl but he was talking to his Aunt before so I didn't think anything about it at first. I'm chilling you know until he gets off the phone and ask who it was because he was on the phone longer than I think I woudld on the phone if I were talking to my Aunt. He replies to me that he was talking to someone he works with. I ask who, because remember, it sounded like a girl. And he says Julie, so I just leave for a second not thinking much about it and I realize that hes leaving early to go and hang out with people he works with. I ask what she wanted and hes like to talk, and I figure out shes who hes going to be hanging out with. I don't instantly think that hes going to be cheating with me, it just gets me mad that I fucking waste all my time and put shit on the line to make him happy and he does nothing for me. Nothing. So then he tells me not to worry because shes "cool" fucking if I hung out with anyone from my work instead of hanging out with him, doesn't matter what the sex is, he would fucking cut me up in little pieces then shove me into the wall to hide me. And if it was a guy, he would probably kill me, the guy... and whoever else he doesn't like. So fucking I was pissed. Then after he mentioned cheating on me... that was when I actually thought about it, it hadn't even crossed my mind yet. Then I was pissed, I didn't even want him to touch me.
We didn't resolve it, he left without a hug, or anything else. It's his fucking fault.
Nothing EVER gets resolved and I'm sick of it.
He should of been gone already.
I should of broken up with him.
He fucking PLANNED out cheating on me.
But yet, somehow I'm still going out with him?
I don't get it.
He makes me feel... ugh I don't even know!
Ashley Nicole