Jan 07, 2004 14:55
Please rescue Emily tonight....music.... family is sleeping she walks upstairs in the dark everybody knows she’s keeping secrets locked up in her heart, she please rescue emily tonight one last time and ill feel fine
please rescue Emily tonight hold her hand help her understand shes just to hang on tight please rescue Emily tonight show her how’s she’s got to take one more day at a time all her friends are jaded hearts cut strait from stone slipped in the river and waited in to deep she cant go on she whispers one last time angels help me fly please rescue emily tonight... (not by me)
Man its been one of those days, you know the days when you hear news about people that you hope isnt true, but you know it is. How do you deal with these days, when the world falls away and you dont know which way is up anymore? you need some ones hand to hold, some one to run to, yet when you lack these things you turn out like me, wondering why.... why did you do that jill ur perfect everyone loves you, sweetie i dont ever want to say goodbye, this is what happened with kristen, i love you guys so much how come you dont love yourselves? remember i will always believe in you but what truly matters is that you believe in yourself... i know its hard to believe in yourself sometimes, it gets hard for me too but always remember if your own number one fan, you always have one fan... besides me that is because i will always cheer for you.
Tried to second guess what cuts me in to, there was a time when i could believe in you.... why does my heart keep running strait back to you there was i time in my life when i would too.. i would have never questioned that look in your eyes.... there was a time when i could believe in you (again not by me) Have you ever sat down and thought of your friends and you think hard enough that the list in your mind falls apart, you dont really know if they are... i mean you laugh together but is that what makes a friend, they know your secrets but come on its not a secret if you tell everyone, you wonder if they would really be there for you or they’d walk away, who will be there when times get hard when life gets hard, when you no longer want to pull yourself out of bed, when wasting away would be easier, who pulls you kicking and screaming from your state of sadness back into a state of happiness? who are my friends?
we drove up the coast the rest of the day... i liked way our conversation danced we laughed and looked our old pictures from paris we got lost together right then right there i diddnt care if anyone knew my heart still belonged to you... (not by me yet again) you ever wonder about the first person you fell in love with? no i dont mean the first person u were like ohh they r pretty or the first person you had a crush with but the first person you were IN LOVE with? you know heart pounding, tongue tied yet you still say stuff anyway? what were they like, were they like you, did they like you back, did u let them know, what are they doing now, what if u told them how you felt about them long ago when u were in love, maybe your still in love with them... where do all the first loves go? the loves doesnt deteriorate i mean you might not remember their name, but you do remember their face. where do the feelings go ? do our feelings disintegrate or do they get washed away like sand on a beach?
Hahaha wow i prob shouldnt listen to country music so much ( i will only listen to one country artist! GO BRENNA WILLIAMS I LOVE U HUN!) hehehe i know her...
One more line I would rather be the one your trying to forget then the one your trying to forget me with
good news about today i got a 100% on my history test, chem was easy, it was justins bday (i luv u sweetie sweet 16!) sex ed was interesting as usual, learned about partial adoption (very interesting for us partial adoptees) math was a peice of cake, it always is... i wore my pink shirt, my shoes diddnt get dirty, and my locker opened onthe first try! more good new hopefully posted after crew!!
I have a place i like to run too.... no one else but me and you.. my lips whisper where have u been, follow me well run wild and tame and free