Look Inside yourself trust the voice within
She walks away from the house, looking at the impressions her boots leave in the freshly fallen snow. The steps are familiar yet they are still hard to take, she hates goodbyes. Goodbyes are the worst things shes ever had to deal with, she has the feeling of despair and when you look closer you see that a tear is gliding silently down her cheek. The snow falls and she suddenly stops walking. turning back to look at the house. Her bloodshot eyes let the tears fall as rapidly as the snow falls around her. She begins to run, run as if something was chasing her and she needs so escape it for dear life.
He looks out his window, and sees that she is leaving. She cant tolerate it anymore. He watches from afar, as the girl he loves runs away... he wonders if she knew how he felt would she do this to herself? would she run, if she knew someone loved her? He grabs his coat.. and chases her down the street.
Picture this scene unfolding in front of you, take on both roles... what would you say what would you do what words can be used to express human emotion, raw human emotion. What do say when ur in pain, when your in love, when you fear, when your feelings have becomed jumbled up and you cant even tell what you feel anymore.... febuary is coming... a month i usually dispise.... this year hope is what it brings, i will be getting my permit febuary 6th i hope that every one else on the road is prepared.... but as febuary approaches words reach my ears... words that i cant figure out their meaning... valentines day febuary 14th... what does that mean.. personally ive allways been alone for vday and maybe these years of only reciving presents from my dad have taken a toll but i begin to question its importance... but as amiee reminds me constantly valentines day is "magical"... well i usually respond what makes it magical personally i try to live through it as if its an ordinary day... recently though ive been questioning my former belife... today i said to amiee "yes it can b magical but only if you want it to be... if you try so that other person has the magical feeling in their insides... dont focus on how you feel thats the point.. the point of it is to focus on the other and the magic is that when you do this you are happier than you could ever imagine to be" to this i hear responces... "make it work, try hard to be 100% yourself, but do not focus 100% on yourself... dont you see ashley *as they grab and shake me by the shoulders* for the past few days youve been bopping around school totally loving everything, even though it might not be good news to you... and thats just amazing" as times change and the world changes we slowly begin to change, and i begin to change, today at lunch i diddnt whine. i diddnt complain. i talked to michael about katie with out having that pang of jealousy... and he talked to me.. and even if my mind wondered back to what was going on in a lunch room 20 minutes away, as brian sat down to eat his lunch and omair joking told him i was cheating; mike knew i was listening... and its been a long time since ive actually done that.
NEW TOPIC hahaha i love doing that
did you know words can cut and leave slashes across your heart, did you know that eveything you say is heard and one day it will all come back to get you... did you know that saying you hope things fail makes me want to work harder not prove you wrong... did you know your heart can really guide you.. did you know that ignorance is sometimes bliss... did you know i know what you said.. evey last word.. down to where you said i hope it doesnt last... you who encouraged me... hoping for failure.. telling my friends that you do... do you think he wouldnt tell me too... did you know that once im taken hands off is enforced... did you know that i will always be your friend... you can count on that... did you know i get distracted.. did you know that your words hurt.. you know what hurt worse.. the way you did it... dont pretend to give support but root against me behind my back
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chem was hard lotsa work to do in there
math ACK ALEX PHIL BRIAN U READ THIS U CALL I NEED YOUR HELP I ACTUALLY DIDDNT GET AN A on A QUIZ!!
history test that we diddnt know about, once again i BS'd it, prob got an A
sex ed~ std test was a killer
**goal for the day** tell someone how you really feel.. for once don't say what they want you to hear
Note to Brian: that guy last night was a friend of Dana's who went to LBSS last year, and he diddnt even know me sorry for the pain u had to go through.. wait ur prob not reading this ahhahahahaha
Today Meg said she loved me... she doesnt say that often
He looks out his window, and sees that she is leaving. She cant tolerate it anymore. He watches from afar, as the girl he loves runs away... he wonders if she knew how he felt would she do this to herself? would she run, if she knew someone loved her? He grabs his coat.. and chases her down the street.
Picture this scene unfolding in front of you, take on both roles... what would you say what would you do what words can be used to express human emotion, raw human emotion. What do say when ur in pain, when your in love, when you fear, when your feelings have becomed jumbled up and you cant even tell what you feel anymore.... febuary is coming... a month i usually dispise.... this year hope is what it brings, i will be getting my permit febuary 6th i hope that every one else on the road is prepared.... but as febuary approaches words reach my ears... words that i cant figure out their meaning... valentines day febuary 14th... what does that mean.. personally ive allways been alone for vday and maybe these years of only reciving presents from my dad have taken a toll but i begin to question its importance... but as amiee reminds me constantly valentines day is "magical"... well i usually respond what makes it magical personally i try to live through it as if its an ordinary day... recently though ive been questioning my former belife... today i said to amiee "yes it can b magical but only if you want it to be... if you try so that other person has the magical feeling in their insides... dont focus on how you feel thats the point.. the point of it is to focus on the other and the magic is that when you do this you are happier than you could ever imagine to be" to this i hear responces... "make it work, try hard to be 100% yourself, but do not focus 100% on yourself... dont you see ashley *as they grab and shake me by the shoulders* for the past few days youve been bopping around school totally loving everything, even though it might not be good news to you... and thats just amazing" as times change and the world changes we slowly begin to change, and i begin to change, today at lunch i diddnt whine. i diddnt complain. i talked to michael about katie with out having that pang of jealousy... and he talked to me.. and even if my mind wondered back to what was going on in a lunch room 20 minutes away, as brian sat down to eat his lunch and omair joking told him i was cheating; mike knew i was listening... and its been a long time since ive actually done that.
NEW TOPIC hahaha i love doing that
did you know words can cut and leave slashes across your heart, did you know that eveything you say is heard and one day it will all come back to get you... did you know that saying you hope things fail makes me want to work harder not prove you wrong... did you know your heart can really guide you.. did you know that ignorance is sometimes bliss... did you know i know what you said.. evey last word.. down to where you said i hope it doesnt last... you who encouraged me... hoping for failure.. telling my friends that you do... do you think he wouldnt tell me too... did you know that once im taken hands off is enforced... did you know that i will always be your friend... you can count on that... did you know i get distracted.. did you know that your words hurt.. you know what hurt worse.. the way you did it... dont pretend to give support but root against me behind my back
NEW TOPIC
chem was hard lotsa work to do in there
math ACK ALEX PHIL BRIAN U READ THIS U CALL I NEED YOUR HELP I ACTUALLY DIDDNT GET AN A on A QUIZ!!
history test that we diddnt know about, once again i BS'd it, prob got an A
sex ed~ std test was a killer
**goal for the day** tell someone how you really feel.. for once don't say what they want you to hear
Note to Brian: that guy last night was a friend of Dana's who went to LBSS last year, and he diddnt even know me sorry for the pain u had to go through.. wait ur prob not reading this ahhahahahaha
Today Meg said she loved me... she doesnt say that often