You Can't be mad at God
sometimes my life dont make sense @ all when the mountains look so big and my faith just seems so small, hold me jesus cuz im shaking like a leaf, thinking of you glory wont you be my prince of peace... my heart is so sore i swear there must be blisters on my heart....surrender doesnt come natural to me... im fallin im fallin on my knees... this salvation..... your grace heals so deep it makes me feel weak... hold me jesus im shaking like a leaf thinking of your glory wont you be my prince of peace.....
man i thought today ws going to be another perky happy day in the life of ashley... boy things can change.... ive been mad at God and its been killing me recently.. i realised today, i cant take it on my own anymore, what happened to my faith, why did i get this way, why am i so upset with God? i was asking myself these questions and finding no answers good enough to justify me turning my back, so i decided i must turn back. I hit my bottom alone, he has offered me a hand to help me up, and once again he has shown his great love, because he let me "re-discover" him all on my own. the old me is coming back, the me that i am when i'm sitting around hanging out, the me that i love, im not going to play this role in school that people have set up for me, God made me the way i am; why should i change it for a bunch of people i see 5 days a week, God see's me 7 days a week, hes always there; he really cares, thats who i have to start liveing for, thats what drives me thats what guides me and thats why im here... i am an instrument and its about time i begun to play. seeing others faiths so strong has helped me cuz i discovered flaws with my own, i need to discover whats right for me its a lot harder than it seems, as jill said i cant grow in my faith untill i find a body of belivers that i can grow with, where are they? im looking, is it where i came from? did i leave it behind? well i guess i will see as i walk down this road blindly, but safely knowing that jesus is holding my hand leading the way.... its time to be Ashley again the Ashley i want to be... the Ashley who is "like christ" i know this road will lead me a lot further than the one i traveled in november and december, its a new year, everything is starting fresh and its time i wipe my slate clean. and become who i am meant to be.
"i lift up all i am to you this heart this life with graditude to u my god i will let go, i will surrender"
"i could sing unending songs of how u saved my soul and i could dance a thousand miles because of your great love, my heart is burstin lord to sing of all uve done how u changed my life and whipped away my past i want to shout it out from every rooftop sing for now i know my god is for me not against me"
i surrender my will to yours i lay it down, at your feet i will lay down.... i lift up all i am to you this heart this life with graditude....i surrender...at your feet i will be found...surrender i surrender lord..i surrender
man i thought today ws going to be another perky happy day in the life of ashley... boy things can change.... ive been mad at God and its been killing me recently.. i realised today, i cant take it on my own anymore, what happened to my faith, why did i get this way, why am i so upset with God? i was asking myself these questions and finding no answers good enough to justify me turning my back, so i decided i must turn back. I hit my bottom alone, he has offered me a hand to help me up, and once again he has shown his great love, because he let me "re-discover" him all on my own. the old me is coming back, the me that i am when i'm sitting around hanging out, the me that i love, im not going to play this role in school that people have set up for me, God made me the way i am; why should i change it for a bunch of people i see 5 days a week, God see's me 7 days a week, hes always there; he really cares, thats who i have to start liveing for, thats what drives me thats what guides me and thats why im here... i am an instrument and its about time i begun to play. seeing others faiths so strong has helped me cuz i discovered flaws with my own, i need to discover whats right for me its a lot harder than it seems, as jill said i cant grow in my faith untill i find a body of belivers that i can grow with, where are they? im looking, is it where i came from? did i leave it behind? well i guess i will see as i walk down this road blindly, but safely knowing that jesus is holding my hand leading the way.... its time to be Ashley again the Ashley i want to be... the Ashley who is "like christ" i know this road will lead me a lot further than the one i traveled in november and december, its a new year, everything is starting fresh and its time i wipe my slate clean. and become who i am meant to be.
"i lift up all i am to you this heart this life with graditude to u my god i will let go, i will surrender"
"i could sing unending songs of how u saved my soul and i could dance a thousand miles because of your great love, my heart is burstin lord to sing of all uve done how u changed my life and whipped away my past i want to shout it out from every rooftop sing for now i know my god is for me not against me"
i surrender my will to yours i lay it down, at your feet i will lay down.... i lift up all i am to you this heart this life with graditude....i surrender...at your feet i will be found...surrender i surrender lord..i surrender