the case of work v. pork
things are good. i had this really great feeling as the bus was leaving new jersey today, about how life and friends and the future is good, even with the bad. or maybe i just didnt think about the bad, which i guess is good.
this weekend i went to the prez scholars retreat in rural new jersey. it was really great, all those corny bonding activities and trust exercises were highly effective. i was myself, in the broadest sense of hte word. like, i would be sitting around talking to people and realize that i was just acting normally, not censoring what i said or trying to be a certain way. i laughed a few times in my real laugh, like when somehting is actually funny, which is an important landmark for me. i got really close with one girl in particular whom i hope i get to know really well. i guess the experience was important to me because it was the closest thing ive had to dorming since college started. so a lot of you dorming folks had that immediate closeness, it just took me a little longer. im excited to go to class and implement the friendships i started. phase 2 haha.
im seeing avenue q on wednesday night as one of my 4 required prez scholar activities, which im looking forward to. im also starting another job, tutoring this buhar 7th grader who lives in a house kinda near me. the money is welcome and its only 2 hours a week. im starting to feel like ksenia ;-)
and on the whole 'separation from most of my closest friends' thing, i really dont know. we shouldnt overcomplicate things. i love you and miss you all, including the ones that are still here. i guess u miss the people u love all the time, even wen theyre still around? i know the distance is overwhelming, and that we're all busy (ive been trying to call someone back for a week, without success. where does the time go??) but i think we shouldnt cut off ties just because we might have missed the initial window of opportunity for keeping up with each others lives. if the love is still there, it'll be fine. and just because you dont see someone or talk to them every week doesnt mean they arent you're friend or you dont care about each other. we're just in a completely crazy time in our lives. if you miss someone and you have some time, call them. period.
BUT once again, LJ is serving as an excellent procrastination tool, and i have a bunch of work to do.
you know whats weird? talking to a new friend about your old friends. i was telling my friend about how jeremy is going to new zealand and how hayden is dating a guy in a relatively famous ska band and how sasha is going to school with us and how taryn is still in HS and all these other really important parts of my life and past, and it all gets abbrieviated. jeremy was 'new zealand boy'. but you're giving people glimpses into yourself by the stories you tell, and eventually theyre incorporated into them and theyre your friends too. interesting. i dont know if that made sense.
Looking forward to seeing you guys (i get giddy when i think of thanksgiving, and even this weekend for that matter),
ashley
this weekend i went to the prez scholars retreat in rural new jersey. it was really great, all those corny bonding activities and trust exercises were highly effective. i was myself, in the broadest sense of hte word. like, i would be sitting around talking to people and realize that i was just acting normally, not censoring what i said or trying to be a certain way. i laughed a few times in my real laugh, like when somehting is actually funny, which is an important landmark for me. i got really close with one girl in particular whom i hope i get to know really well. i guess the experience was important to me because it was the closest thing ive had to dorming since college started. so a lot of you dorming folks had that immediate closeness, it just took me a little longer. im excited to go to class and implement the friendships i started. phase 2 haha.
im seeing avenue q on wednesday night as one of my 4 required prez scholar activities, which im looking forward to. im also starting another job, tutoring this buhar 7th grader who lives in a house kinda near me. the money is welcome and its only 2 hours a week. im starting to feel like ksenia ;-)
and on the whole 'separation from most of my closest friends' thing, i really dont know. we shouldnt overcomplicate things. i love you and miss you all, including the ones that are still here. i guess u miss the people u love all the time, even wen theyre still around? i know the distance is overwhelming, and that we're all busy (ive been trying to call someone back for a week, without success. where does the time go??) but i think we shouldnt cut off ties just because we might have missed the initial window of opportunity for keeping up with each others lives. if the love is still there, it'll be fine. and just because you dont see someone or talk to them every week doesnt mean they arent you're friend or you dont care about each other. we're just in a completely crazy time in our lives. if you miss someone and you have some time, call them. period.
BUT once again, LJ is serving as an excellent procrastination tool, and i have a bunch of work to do.
you know whats weird? talking to a new friend about your old friends. i was telling my friend about how jeremy is going to new zealand and how hayden is dating a guy in a relatively famous ska band and how sasha is going to school with us and how taryn is still in HS and all these other really important parts of my life and past, and it all gets abbrieviated. jeremy was 'new zealand boy'. but you're giving people glimpses into yourself by the stories you tell, and eventually theyre incorporated into them and theyre your friends too. interesting. i dont know if that made sense.
Looking forward to seeing you guys (i get giddy when i think of thanksgiving, and even this weekend for that matter),
ashley