I must be insane...
So - I am thinking about going back to school.
I actually have been thinking about this for a long time, but I kept putting it off and putting it off. Much of the time, it was because I was thinking "hey, I have a decent goverment job that pays fairly well and if I could ever get hired on permanent, I would be set!"
Of course, then the goverment starts talking about privatizing Canada Post and I hear more and more about how positions are not being filled once people retire and I see it for myself in my own city... I watch and listen as almost every single person I talk to at works complains to me about how the job is terrible and how their knees are bad and backs are bad and life is bad... I have conflicts with management and find myself more and more frustrated as each day goes by and I begin to wonder, am I happy?
Work-wise?
Definately not.
Most other areas of my life are damn good - I have a loving boyfriend who treats me well and is a geek and has the same dreams and wants as I do. I have three lovely cats who cuddle with me and are perfect little pooheads every day, I was able to purchase a used car with finn that is the best car I have EVER driven, my family is wonderful and support me in everything I do and spiritually I am making some pretty major decisions and I am heading in a path that makes me very happy.
So, back to the school and work thing - I will still work as a casual, the extra money will help us pay the car off faster and there are things that Finn and I want to purchase which mean that we cannot do it on his paycheck alone. I have applied to the College of New Caledonia and have been accepted into the Management Diploma program... which should give me many of the courses and much of the knowledge needed to start my own business (mmm, Accounting! I am so excited about getting to do math again!)
I have been looking into grants and loans that are available and have found a plethora of companies and goverment agencies just aching to give money away - especially to young women under 30 who wish to start a business.
So, hopefully, within the next few years I will be well on my way to owning and running a small scale organic farm.
There is definately a bit of trepidation towards going back to school... I never really thought that I would go back and I have had to deal with a lot of negative emotions surrounding that particular subject. This also means that I have to face a lot of my fears - especially around failure.
Still, I have that exciting tingly feeling that I get when I am heading in the right direction and I can't help but know that this is the right path!
Of course, helps a lot that Dad is, once again, willing to help me with the cost of school... something that I will be eternally grateful to him for!
I have to pick Finn up from work now - but I thought that I should let you all know that I am still alive and am finally moving forward once more with my life!
Love and hugs!
I actually have been thinking about this for a long time, but I kept putting it off and putting it off. Much of the time, it was because I was thinking "hey, I have a decent goverment job that pays fairly well and if I could ever get hired on permanent, I would be set!"
Of course, then the goverment starts talking about privatizing Canada Post and I hear more and more about how positions are not being filled once people retire and I see it for myself in my own city... I watch and listen as almost every single person I talk to at works complains to me about how the job is terrible and how their knees are bad and backs are bad and life is bad... I have conflicts with management and find myself more and more frustrated as each day goes by and I begin to wonder, am I happy?
Work-wise?
Definately not.
Most other areas of my life are damn good - I have a loving boyfriend who treats me well and is a geek and has the same dreams and wants as I do. I have three lovely cats who cuddle with me and are perfect little pooheads every day, I was able to purchase a used car with finn that is the best car I have EVER driven, my family is wonderful and support me in everything I do and spiritually I am making some pretty major decisions and I am heading in a path that makes me very happy.
So, back to the school and work thing - I will still work as a casual, the extra money will help us pay the car off faster and there are things that Finn and I want to purchase which mean that we cannot do it on his paycheck alone. I have applied to the College of New Caledonia and have been accepted into the Management Diploma program... which should give me many of the courses and much of the knowledge needed to start my own business (mmm, Accounting! I am so excited about getting to do math again!)
I have been looking into grants and loans that are available and have found a plethora of companies and goverment agencies just aching to give money away - especially to young women under 30 who wish to start a business.
So, hopefully, within the next few years I will be well on my way to owning and running a small scale organic farm.
There is definately a bit of trepidation towards going back to school... I never really thought that I would go back and I have had to deal with a lot of negative emotions surrounding that particular subject. This also means that I have to face a lot of my fears - especially around failure.
Still, I have that exciting tingly feeling that I get when I am heading in the right direction and I can't help but know that this is the right path!
Of course, helps a lot that Dad is, once again, willing to help me with the cost of school... something that I will be eternally grateful to him for!
I have to pick Finn up from work now - but I thought that I should let you all know that I am still alive and am finally moving forward once more with my life!
Love and hugs!