christian 'lunchbox' andersen
the last time i talked to him was thursday before his surgery. he was so chill and laid back about the whole deal that i dont think anyone ever know how serious it really was. he was still chattin to me about some new musics i should check out, and he was one of the few people whose musical opinions i truly did trust.
but damn. friday, he went into surgery and came out fine, but later that night went into cardiac arrest. and i still was in denial about the seriousness of the situation. the wake up call happened on sunday when i found out that he had to have his leg amputated. and then yesterday, in class, mike came up to me half in tears saying that they have to turn off his respirator. for some reason all i could think about was why they wouldnt give him a chance to fight through it, it couldnt be THAT bad. but then i went outside to take a breath and thats about when i lost it. knowing that he was set to pass away tomorrow and being in the bathroom crying was really surreal. and then going out side to find dan and mike in tears, uuugh, i would pay to never see anything like that again. seeing your friends cry like that just really gets to me.
and of course i kept thinking of all of the memories lb and i had after i first met the kid at the yellow house and then really getting to hang out at pinks old house last year, him getting his head shaved and getting pushed in the pool, beer pong every night of the weekend, ghost ridin his yellow jeep, him dj-in, and drunk skateboarding. but the one thing i could not stop thinking about how rachel must feel. i know if i ever lost seth i would be miserable. i mean imagine, just when you got something good, its taken away from you. its totally unfair.
i found out later from dan he ended up passing away on his own at around 6 that night which was kind of a relief to me. i feel like at least then he was ready.
man, just talking about it is ridiculous. ive never lost anyone close to me before. every so often i get this wave of realization that hes gone and it makes me sick to my stomach. no parents should outlive their children, especially when they were only 23. it also makes me realize how much we need to keep reminding the people around us how much we love them and how we need to value our health while we are still young.
all im gonna say is youre gonna be missed so much buddy, we love you
but damn. friday, he went into surgery and came out fine, but later that night went into cardiac arrest. and i still was in denial about the seriousness of the situation. the wake up call happened on sunday when i found out that he had to have his leg amputated. and then yesterday, in class, mike came up to me half in tears saying that they have to turn off his respirator. for some reason all i could think about was why they wouldnt give him a chance to fight through it, it couldnt be THAT bad. but then i went outside to take a breath and thats about when i lost it. knowing that he was set to pass away tomorrow and being in the bathroom crying was really surreal. and then going out side to find dan and mike in tears, uuugh, i would pay to never see anything like that again. seeing your friends cry like that just really gets to me.
and of course i kept thinking of all of the memories lb and i had after i first met the kid at the yellow house and then really getting to hang out at pinks old house last year, him getting his head shaved and getting pushed in the pool, beer pong every night of the weekend, ghost ridin his yellow jeep, him dj-in, and drunk skateboarding. but the one thing i could not stop thinking about how rachel must feel. i know if i ever lost seth i would be miserable. i mean imagine, just when you got something good, its taken away from you. its totally unfair.
i found out later from dan he ended up passing away on his own at around 6 that night which was kind of a relief to me. i feel like at least then he was ready.
man, just talking about it is ridiculous. ive never lost anyone close to me before. every so often i get this wave of realization that hes gone and it makes me sick to my stomach. no parents should outlive their children, especially when they were only 23. it also makes me realize how much we need to keep reminding the people around us how much we love them and how we need to value our health while we are still young.
all im gonna say is youre gonna be missed so much buddy, we love you