MUMBLE JUMBLE bllllllllahhhh
I dont even know where to start. but I know I need to write.
I wish I had a close friend that I could tell anything to. I know God is there but sometimes its so hard to believe He is really there when I get no audible response. I know I need to open my ears and listen to him talk to me. I have just cluttered my life with sin and junk. NOISE. when really I just need to sit in the silence and listen to my Daddy tell me that he loves me. I need to hear those words, I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.
I dont think I hear them enough. Last night I was talking to Patrick on the phone, and before we got off the phone he told me that he loved me. My heart needed it.
I have yet again got myself into a screwed up relationship. I thought he was so great for me. He is handsome, kind, loving and seeminly romantic. I now feel so differently towards him. I feel like he is using me for sex, and just stringing me along. I dont want him to be doing that to me. And I dont know if its just my insecurities but something doesnt feel right. I want to be able to trust him, and trust that he is indeed interested in me for who I am and not for sex. My friends and family say to give it time. so Im going to try that. I dont want to pressure him. I just wish I could take it easy.
I feel like I have comprimised alot for him. I was trying to stop any sexual behavior on my part. I know this isnt the man for me. becuase my man would understand that and we wouldnt be doing whatever it is we are doing.
I need to be strong and put an end to this. Ijust wish I wasnt lonley
I wish I had a close friend that I could tell anything to. I know God is there but sometimes its so hard to believe He is really there when I get no audible response. I know I need to open my ears and listen to him talk to me. I have just cluttered my life with sin and junk. NOISE. when really I just need to sit in the silence and listen to my Daddy tell me that he loves me. I need to hear those words, I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.
I dont think I hear them enough. Last night I was talking to Patrick on the phone, and before we got off the phone he told me that he loved me. My heart needed it.
I have yet again got myself into a screwed up relationship. I thought he was so great for me. He is handsome, kind, loving and seeminly romantic. I now feel so differently towards him. I feel like he is using me for sex, and just stringing me along. I dont want him to be doing that to me. And I dont know if its just my insecurities but something doesnt feel right. I want to be able to trust him, and trust that he is indeed interested in me for who I am and not for sex. My friends and family say to give it time. so Im going to try that. I dont want to pressure him. I just wish I could take it easy.
I feel like I have comprimised alot for him. I was trying to stop any sexual behavior on my part. I know this isnt the man for me. becuase my man would understand that and we wouldnt be doing whatever it is we are doing.
I need to be strong and put an end to this. Ijust wish I wasnt lonley