grrrr
ever have one of those days when you feel like noone understands you . ever feel that the people that you could count on are not there anymore.
ever felt so alone that it hurts.
well todays one of those days for me. years ago my grandmother past away she was my best friend and i thought that i would never find another friend or relationship like that with anyone else. well there was one person .that i had been becoming very close with who i love with all my heart . well latly this person is making me feel like they are pushing me away . (AM I REALLY THAT BAD OF A PERSON)
8 weeks ago i gave birth to myson . (needless to say i got rid of all the baby stuff from my daughter cause i didnt think i was having anymore).well i never reseaved a baby shower i wasnt exspecting one was just shocked thats all. see my sister had 3 kids and had a shower for all three of her boys .
and thenmy cousin had 2 girls and a boy and the last boy and girl were only 2 years apart and she had one for each. im not made just kinda feel left out. like me having kids doesnt matter.i had a shower with my daughter it was great.My current new best friend said "if i would have know they werent having one i would have " that was sweet . and then my mother in law said the same thing . i guess im just feeling hurt like i dont matter. i try so hard to fit in im always with my kids 24 hours a day . and my husband is the only one working. we had to stretch what money we had to get the major things we needed . yeah we got a few gifts . but its our parents helped too. maybe im over reacting but it still kinda hurt . last weekend i went to a baby shower for a dear friend. and it was where i had gone for my daughters shower, it kinda brought up these feeling again sorry so long kris
ever felt so alone that it hurts.
well todays one of those days for me. years ago my grandmother past away she was my best friend and i thought that i would never find another friend or relationship like that with anyone else. well there was one person .that i had been becoming very close with who i love with all my heart . well latly this person is making me feel like they are pushing me away . (AM I REALLY THAT BAD OF A PERSON)
8 weeks ago i gave birth to myson . (needless to say i got rid of all the baby stuff from my daughter cause i didnt think i was having anymore).well i never reseaved a baby shower i wasnt exspecting one was just shocked thats all. see my sister had 3 kids and had a shower for all three of her boys .
and thenmy cousin had 2 girls and a boy and the last boy and girl were only 2 years apart and she had one for each. im not made just kinda feel left out. like me having kids doesnt matter.i had a shower with my daughter it was great.My current new best friend said "if i would have know they werent having one i would have " that was sweet . and then my mother in law said the same thing . i guess im just feeling hurt like i dont matter. i try so hard to fit in im always with my kids 24 hours a day . and my husband is the only one working. we had to stretch what money we had to get the major things we needed . yeah we got a few gifts . but its our parents helped too. maybe im over reacting but it still kinda hurt . last weekend i went to a baby shower for a dear friend. and it was where i had gone for my daughters shower, it kinda brought up these feeling again sorry so long kris