fuck this man
I can't deal with this shit anymore, man. hah, where to begin?! I don't even know anymore. I feel like for the rest of my life, I am always going to be depressed and unhappy. Why? Because there is just nothing in my life that I can please. Gosh that sounds really selfish but that is just how I feel right now. Sometimes I feel like I don't even know. Like I'm not worth even talking to or even looked at cuz I'm seriously just bad luck. I will never ever probably EVER have a normal life. I'm a bad luck seed. I bring bad luck to everyone, myself, friends, family just everyone. I know its not right to question GOD but, I feel like he doesn't want me to be happy. I just don't know what to do anymore. Why do I feel this way? Why am I constantly un-fuckin'-happy all the time? Why am I always depressed? How come everytime I get close to someone or something, I always end up getting hurt? WHY? WHY? WHY? Why am I the way I am? Why am I this girl who for her whole life been nothing but shit to everyone? Even fucking family members? I can't take this bullshit of being unhappy all the time. I can't say that I want my life to be back like it was when I was in VA cuz I was unhappy there also so, hah, basically my life is a totally fucked up! Great. But then again, its that saying 'shit happens.' Yeah, that shit always happens to me......................and just fucks me over...................and over..........................and over................................and over again......is it really that hard to just get a normal life? For once, be happy without something fucking the happiness up? Yeah, that's just what I wish................that shit ain't never gon happen. I'm just going to be fucked for the rest of my life, bring bad luck to everyone. Fuck this shit man........I hate this and I don't like myself.....I'm ending this so I can stop crying.