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Home for the summer once again. This is so crazy how time goes by. I love James, but I'm not sure I'm in love with him. Gonna sound crazy but I miss that "obsessed" feeling I had with him. I won't see him for about 25 days and I'm not that sad... Eh, it will work itself out hopefully. This summer we're splitting the costs of everything. I have to stop being a pushover bc I realize if he doesn't spend $40 to see me, he'll sped it on weed. I just have to remember that.
Anyway, starting at Bartletts for my SIXTH summer. Boring. Its a cope out, really. Its my way of never having to look for another job. Oh and I need money like nobody's business.
45 mins left on the boat. fml. It's hot here. I want people to like me... but I guess I have to work on liking myelf. I want to lose at least 15 lbs this summer... hopefully more. I want to feel happy because sometimes i do and sometimes i don't and i think it is dependent of my accomplishments and how i feel about myself.
we'll see.
I weight like 165 right now. Eeks.
Anyway, starting at Bartletts for my SIXTH summer. Boring. Its a cope out, really. Its my way of never having to look for another job. Oh and I need money like nobody's business.
45 mins left on the boat. fml. It's hot here. I want people to like me... but I guess I have to work on liking myelf. I want to lose at least 15 lbs this summer... hopefully more. I want to feel happy because sometimes i do and sometimes i don't and i think it is dependent of my accomplishments and how i feel about myself.
we'll see.
I weight like 165 right now. Eeks.