Is the wrong actually right?
Are we doing things wrong? I wonder. Are the decisions we make right? Are we getting anywhere? I wonder if the things I do, the things I stick with are what I should be. People always say to do what you feel is right. Well what if I don’t feel? I don’t know if I feel anything… so should I say no to a decision just because I do not know if I feel that it is right? I am so lost… and I think my thoughts only help but none. I am constantly stuck in the wilderness of my complications. I wish I could KNOW that I feel something. They always say that you will JUST KNOW… but I don’t understand how that is possible. How is one supposed to simply KNOW? Ahh… what if one doesn’t know that they know. That would be an even larger problem, now wouldn’t it? I want to be happy. I want to live knowing that this is my life and this is what I want, what I need. I don’t want to continuously wonder if it is right, if I should have done something else, if I should have broke it off to start another. Love? They say you just know, again. So if I am not sure that I ‘just know,’ is it wrong? Am I wasting time? Am I wasting away? Am I missing out on something that could be in the future cause I am in an attempt to figure out the future? Ahhh… it feels right. I don’t know if it is, but I do know that I don’t want to have to do without it right now. There are parts I don’t care so much for, yet, there is nothing I would rather. Grrr… this is my frustration expressed in a growl. Why are people so amazing? Its amazing how some people can walk right into your life and say the perfect words and the most needed of times. I thank you for that. I look forward to all the decisions I will make, and even more to the ones I won’t. MUAH BABY! STILL NAKED.
