A tried to grab your hand...
What are you doing for the rest of your life?
::tear::
Just follow me, I will be everything you need.
Love! Quite the self-contradicting term! How do you distinguish whether it is real or something you just claim to have, but don’t even know what it stands for? I guess there is no telling, rather that, when it is present, it is inevitably felt, known!
I spent yesterday with the loves of my life! The day consumed by the marvelous Tessa, and the night by my stunning Billy!
Tessa is so amazingly beautiful and sometimes I don’t think she realizes it! We went to Hot Topic and this gorgeous, seriously gorgeous guy hit on her. I think she has been in love with Aaron for so long that she had to ask me if the guy was flirting with us! Beautiful! I adore it… she cracks me up! Heck yes he was hitting on you… sis he ever leave our side all throughout the store? I think not! Tessa goes through so much in her life, and I am blessed to be by her side! I love her with all of my heart and cannot wait to grow old with her!
Billy, on the other hand, is simply amazing! I adore him! I counted the time I have known him the other day… umm yeah… and it has only been twelve weeks! What the crap?!? Are you kidding? Shoot… that’s all. I feel so stupid! Only knowing of him for twelve weeks, which means… I FIRST MET him on the 26th of Feb, we first kissed a week after that on the 5th of March, he first CALLED me on the 18th of March, I don’t even know when we were said to be DATING, and now we are “TOGETHER”. How the F does that happen?!? Especially with me. How could I end up in a relationship? Hmmm… something to ponder, I guess. I like him though, and I actually hope this one lasts. He is different from the rest… he has something. I am not quite sure what it is, be there is something that has got me hooked. Sometimes I wonder what I am doing… in a relationship. Like, what am I missing out there? There is potential out there, and Billy lives so far away. What am I to do? I would and will never abandon my life for a guy. I have never said that I wanted anything to last… there is no point. But its different with Billy. I think. I hope. Ya, it is! Okay, enough random thoughts of my imperfections with relationships, and my theories on how to push and run! “Don‘t drop me outside… I hate being run over!”
I think I am in love with the never! How can it be that something can NEVER happen? Not true. There is an infinite possibility surrounding us. I believe anything can happen… in moderation! I wish I could figure out who I am. I always want to change… and are always unable o realize it. The change occurs on its own, and I don’t even recognize it! Fun! I sound like an idiot!
Take a moment:
What do you wish you had done yesterday? Let 'Someone' hold me longer.
What do you want to do today? Figure out my life.
What do you want to do tomorrow? Wake up.
What do you want out of life? Happiness.
What is one thing you want to do before you die? Fall in love. (and know it)
What do you wish you had the strength to do everyday? Smile and tell everyone that I love, that I love them.
Would you rather live your life with regrets, knowing you made mistakes; or regret nothing, knowing you made mistakes? Never with regrets… the past in nonexistent, all we have is the here and the now. The past is nothing more than in our heads, and the future, we can only hope to see.
For every tear that falls... I wish you the worst. For every tear I catch... I wish you the best, knowing that the worst is only the best that can come from all of this. I am sorry. If I never saw you again, it would be too soon.
The scars remind us that the past is real.
I keep holding on to what I want to believe...