He is my superhero!
So... today was nice. I don't think I have had a day like today in a while. I haven't even gone to sleep yet... and I m not the slightest bit tired. I am happy. I got to listen to live music today, spend time on myself, eat @ yummy Freebirds, spend time with genuine guys, hang out with my best friend and listen to his problems. Oh... he thinks he has so many. He is very much just like me... never thinks he is good enough, always thinks he is missing out on something, afraid on the chance something might actually work out, and truly cares about those who are close to him. I love that about him... he would do anything for the ones closest to him... and I think that is why I am so content and so blessed to be his friend. I want him to able to confide in me, and I want to be the one to give him the best of advice to make his life a beautiful simplicity. Just to hear him talk about his mother and his two best highschool friends... tells me that he is true and concerned and simply just a good guy. He is so smart and knows what he thinks... but will listen to all other probabilities. I am glad I was able to talk with him tonight, because recently I have come to the realization that I am not who I want to be exactly. I don't strive my hardest at everything, I am lazy; I don't tell the people who I love that they mean the world to me very often, I am selfish; I push people away and I run from situations, I am scared. But what am I scared of? What could possibly be out there that I fear? Do I fear that pain will find me... that happiness might actually exist... that I would not be worth it. I suppose we can only do so much... but then again... can't we always do more? I am still a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. Maybe this friendship with him will allow me to grow and become all that I aspire to. maybe...just maybe. well it is almost morning... going to bed! Ahhh... where is the tylenol pm? I need it so! I love you!