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<> In the past two weeks
a lot is new,
or is it old?
The Girls (O.C.)- As most of you know, we got into a fight, well all is well. I am not goin to lie, I couldnt be more happy :-D i just wish they could spend my birthday with me....We had a great past 2 weekends. The first weekend I was with Jess a lot. Its weird becuase she talkes to people that I have no idea who they are, just something I have to get used too I guess. Jenn and I spent the most of last weekend together, we talked and things are good, it didnt even feel weird around them anymore, i love it!
Ferris- Things are still good as always. It feels a little weird becuase I have not been here the past two weekends, I guess you sometimes have to give up what you have to get what you had? I dunno im kinda really confused right now, but maybe its me....
Spring Break- It is comin sooo fast....I CANT WAIT! I am seriously sooo excited ahhh im goin crazy, its the only thing that is gettin me through this horrible winter up here!!
&l> 3 days till my birthday!
I am very excited about my birthday cause I have always loved it but I was reflecting back on my birthdays and relized I have never really had an awesome birthday, so what keeps me sooo excited for my birthday every year? Is it that I hope this birthday will be better?? Maybe...Lets just say screw birthdays if this one sucks too!
***Birthday Wishes***
All I would love for my birthday is to spend it with *HER* it will NEVER happen I know it and thats what hurts soo much. I thought about this probably too hard on my drive back to school and I just started to cry...I love her with all of my heart, I have never had a friend like her, but how can I call her my True 100% best friend, my sister when she is never there for the good, sure she is there when I really need her but if I just want to have some true "girlfriend" fun, it will never happen. The "teenage" years are supposed to be the most fun..
16- CAR
18- Adult
19- CANADA
but me, never her there :( it just really sucks, its sad to think that I get scared in the future she may not be at my wedding, parties, or anyother Big events, it just so happens that something comes up but i know she "CANT/ is not ALLOWED" to come...it makes me sick, I just want to spend a birthday with her...
Scott- I am pretty sure we are goin to Fall Out Boy for my birthday!!! Very pumped about that, also cause I have a valentine!! awww haha I am so happy with him, he takes all my worries away and makes me feel like it will be okay, I have never had a guy that cared soo much, Thanks baby!!
On another note, kinda jumping around...
So I came to Ferris for some pretty stupid reasons,
1) Riley
2) Cheerleading
3) To get out of my house cause if I didnt leave now I probably never would.....
Yeah so I came here becuase as most of you know I am SUPER close with my madra....I felt as if I didnt go away now, I would never leave my house. This is part of the reason I never came home last semester becuase its sooo hard to leave my Best Friend. I came home like 2 times last semester and I think that was like Thanksgivin and Christmas....It was sooo hard to say bye to my mom to come back up to school, even over christmas break my mom was just like stay home. She crys every time I leave, do you know how hard that is to get in my car (when I am tryin to be strong to not cry too) and pull away not always sure of the next time I will be home... I know it sounds lame but me and my mom are sooo close I really dont think people understand, everyone says they need there friends when they cant talk to there parents but I tell my mom EVERYTHING, lol the joke is its stuff I should tell her when im 40 but instead I tell her the next day, I love spending time with her and thats why when I am up here I probably talk to her 7 or 10 times a day!!! Well with me goin home the past 2 weekends, its been hard to be up here cause I miss her a lot!! Urgh might sound gay to some but I love her!!!