Dear New Years,
Dear New Years,
I would like you to maybe make 2008 better then 2007, because to be honest, this year has sucked major balls. Maybe i could actually get to do things ive been looking forward to, or be taken nice places, or shit maybe even surprised with something for once, rather then me always fucking doing it all the god damn time. Maybe i might actually get mailed back by some of the people ive mailed, although i know that will never happen, because people just dont know how to be thoughtful anymore i guess. Maybe i will actually be treated decently, instead of being used, and asked for shit. Maybe people wont borrow and lose my things, and then not apologies, i think id like that to stop too. Maybe for once in my fucking life ill be able to enjoy a nice nights sleep. Maybe i wont have to always make the first move, or be left to pay someones bill. Maybe someone will actually think of me and call me up to do something, rather then have myself plan shit, and get together with people. Maybe my life will get better, and i can get off my stupid medication. Is it so much to ask to get loved back, and given affection as much as i give it? Can i actually have a day planned by someone else? Next year i would like to be "wowed" by something, because as of right now, nothing has truly impressed me. I would love to have people remember me, and compliment me, but it seems to be such a hard thing to come by now a days. Im also pretty tired of going out of my way for someone, and then never get that same courtesy back. Im tired of pulling teeth to actually get a cuddle or nice kiss. Id like to have a romantic night for once, im kinda tired of listening to the stupid television in the background. I would like the kindness of people to improve, because right now, i feel like im one of the only people who are actually being good to everyone. I have this ability to get screwed over by everyone around me, and every day their seems to be some form of disappointment waiting to crush any spirit i may have left in me.
Maybe you could make this happen in the new year, id really appreciate it.
Happy New Year Everyone.
I would like you to maybe make 2008 better then 2007, because to be honest, this year has sucked major balls. Maybe i could actually get to do things ive been looking forward to, or be taken nice places, or shit maybe even surprised with something for once, rather then me always fucking doing it all the god damn time. Maybe i might actually get mailed back by some of the people ive mailed, although i know that will never happen, because people just dont know how to be thoughtful anymore i guess. Maybe i will actually be treated decently, instead of being used, and asked for shit. Maybe people wont borrow and lose my things, and then not apologies, i think id like that to stop too. Maybe for once in my fucking life ill be able to enjoy a nice nights sleep. Maybe i wont have to always make the first move, or be left to pay someones bill. Maybe someone will actually think of me and call me up to do something, rather then have myself plan shit, and get together with people. Maybe my life will get better, and i can get off my stupid medication. Is it so much to ask to get loved back, and given affection as much as i give it? Can i actually have a day planned by someone else? Next year i would like to be "wowed" by something, because as of right now, nothing has truly impressed me. I would love to have people remember me, and compliment me, but it seems to be such a hard thing to come by now a days. Im also pretty tired of going out of my way for someone, and then never get that same courtesy back. Im tired of pulling teeth to actually get a cuddle or nice kiss. Id like to have a romantic night for once, im kinda tired of listening to the stupid television in the background. I would like the kindness of people to improve, because right now, i feel like im one of the only people who are actually being good to everyone. I have this ability to get screwed over by everyone around me, and every day their seems to be some form of disappointment waiting to crush any spirit i may have left in me.
Maybe you could make this happen in the new year, id really appreciate it.
Happy New Year Everyone.