I guess this is growing up...w/ friends that aint so bad
So my move in was very stressful...this is why I wanted to move in on a day I was off, but unfortunetly I had to work by my dad's schedule. So basically with traffic and minor set backs we did not get to the apartment until 2pm..which then I had to leave to go to work, so my dad and my brother brought everything in.
Then I got a text saying the couch didn't fit..I had to leave the back office because I couldn't help but cry. It seemed like if it wasn't one thing, it was another. I also received an email that day saying my rent/lease was not received... and I did mail it..I have witnesses!
On top of all of that those little bumps we noticed in the livingroom and Ellen's room are growing and spliting at a rapid rate... this is all almost laughable except for the fact I cried over them.
Thank goodness Ellen, Samm and Steven where there to calm me down. Samm and I had a good talk in my room. She was saying I should watch more HGTV because stuff like this happens all the time to those first time hhome owners on their shows hahaha. Also..in the midst of my freak out, she was saying this is actually exciting and a good experience for me because I will learn how to handle things... it is true. I need to. I think its probably an issue that the only reason I get so upset about these things is that I'm afraid my mom will come to see the place and nit pick and freak out on me and tell me how I've made a bad decision.
I also told her that before the floor fiasco, the previous thing I was worried about was that one of the knobs on my bed needed to be glued down because it was loose and kept coming off... now seems so small. But then I was telling her how I think I want to leave it loose because it reminds me of one of my favorite movies "its a wonderful life" and that it wil remind me also through my own process that things won't be perfect and maybe its better that way...it makes things what they are.
So as I was freaking out about what my mom would say Ellen said... "well tell her if she wanted you to have a better place, she should have picked it out and paid for it...this is your life".
I truly know this is something I have to work on... even when we were moving my dad kept trying to reinforce the idea od "we'll deal with it"... and trying to get me to calm down. I really want to just let somethings roll off me a little better, and have the mentality that, "this can be fixed, no use freaking out over it".
So after that the four of us went to Giordoanos, then met up with Cassanda. And went grocery shopping. All in all for the day I spent over $200...luckily my gift card from work covered $100 and essentially got me my 30 day el pass and stamps. I still feel like I have no food in the place but I'm going to try to get it to last me 2 weeks.
Then we went back and all sat on my bed and talked about sex for almost 2 hours hahaha. Haha at us taking turns tweeting Samm quotes. This definetly got my mind off things. Then we went for frozen yogurt.
I got home, took a shower, which thankfully has good water pressure and I really like our bathroom. ..then I did not watch Slumdog Millionaire because I fell asleep.
So despite the freaking out... all and all I am glad we finally have our place. The location is amazing and it really is a cute apartment... I'll just feel way better once the floors are fixed and everything is settled. I think we'll be looking at July for a party at our place.
The main point of the story is "no man is a failure, who has friends".... and seriously thank you to everyone and anyone who has ever been a friend to me, ever helped me, talked me through something and just had fun with me... I honestly do not think I would have anything I have in my life or be moved out at this point, if I did not meet my "show friends".... I know I strive to be "independent" but definitely not in every sense of the word because I very much still need and will always need people, especially you.
Then I got a text saying the couch didn't fit..I had to leave the back office because I couldn't help but cry. It seemed like if it wasn't one thing, it was another. I also received an email that day saying my rent/lease was not received... and I did mail it..I have witnesses!
On top of all of that those little bumps we noticed in the livingroom and Ellen's room are growing and spliting at a rapid rate... this is all almost laughable except for the fact I cried over them.
Thank goodness Ellen, Samm and Steven where there to calm me down. Samm and I had a good talk in my room. She was saying I should watch more HGTV because stuff like this happens all the time to those first time hhome owners on their shows hahaha. Also..in the midst of my freak out, she was saying this is actually exciting and a good experience for me because I will learn how to handle things... it is true. I need to. I think its probably an issue that the only reason I get so upset about these things is that I'm afraid my mom will come to see the place and nit pick and freak out on me and tell me how I've made a bad decision.
I also told her that before the floor fiasco, the previous thing I was worried about was that one of the knobs on my bed needed to be glued down because it was loose and kept coming off... now seems so small. But then I was telling her how I think I want to leave it loose because it reminds me of one of my favorite movies "its a wonderful life" and that it wil remind me also through my own process that things won't be perfect and maybe its better that way...it makes things what they are.
So as I was freaking out about what my mom would say Ellen said... "well tell her if she wanted you to have a better place, she should have picked it out and paid for it...this is your life".
I truly know this is something I have to work on... even when we were moving my dad kept trying to reinforce the idea od "we'll deal with it"... and trying to get me to calm down. I really want to just let somethings roll off me a little better, and have the mentality that, "this can be fixed, no use freaking out over it".
So after that the four of us went to Giordoanos, then met up with Cassanda. And went grocery shopping. All in all for the day I spent over $200...luckily my gift card from work covered $100 and essentially got me my 30 day el pass and stamps. I still feel like I have no food in the place but I'm going to try to get it to last me 2 weeks.
Then we went back and all sat on my bed and talked about sex for almost 2 hours hahaha. Haha at us taking turns tweeting Samm quotes. This definetly got my mind off things. Then we went for frozen yogurt.
I got home, took a shower, which thankfully has good water pressure and I really like our bathroom. ..then I did not watch Slumdog Millionaire because I fell asleep.
So despite the freaking out... all and all I am glad we finally have our place. The location is amazing and it really is a cute apartment... I'll just feel way better once the floors are fixed and everything is settled. I think we'll be looking at July for a party at our place.
The main point of the story is "no man is a failure, who has friends".... and seriously thank you to everyone and anyone who has ever been a friend to me, ever helped me, talked me through something and just had fun with me... I honestly do not think I would have anything I have in my life or be moved out at this point, if I did not meet my "show friends".... I know I strive to be "independent" but definitely not in every sense of the word because I very much still need and will always need people, especially you.