It's been 13 years... 13... Ive been messed up for 13 years....
I dont know what it is lately, But Im so like.. super emotional. there are moments when I can almost be really really happy, and then little things like a pop stain on my kitchen floor from when I Was 13 or 14 can make me cry. Because I miss being that young. Today will be twice that I get to hang out with nikki, twice this week, that I have been so happy, I wanna cry. Haha as weird as that is. last night I was filling out some survey things, and realized that its been two years, since Ive stopped hanging out with a lot of my old friends, and grew like way adapted to Davids friends. Which isnt a bad thing. I love the people that Ive let into my life because of David. Altho it honestly took almost a year for me to like people. ha. Crazy. I think to much. I need to stop thinking sometime, and just... go.. lol. I need a drink. I think I really do. anyway, Tonight Nikki, Steve, David,Me, Shawn, Laura & maybe Lobes are all gonna do dinner *manicotti* and strawberry daquiri's well for me and Nikki anyway, and it looks like rain, so Im thinking a night of drinking in the rain. :) yay!