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I emailed Sammy this one thing and it was like no big deal. And now I feel like I should explain the whole thing but its not easy to explain because of the fact that i am so totally weird and the way i think is so complicated and seemingly unrelated. Then he told me to just call and explain but I think that would be kinda weird given the fact that it has honestly been the better part of 8 months since I actually spoke to him. Kinda odd and I dont really know what to do and i feel that if i were to say "i feel odd calling you" i wouldnt want him to take it in a way that would imply that i am calling him because i felt a desire to. And its not that I dont want to talk to him but its not one of my priorities, not meaning i dont care about him but, he isnt available and his girlfriend extremely despises me and i feel that it would just complicate things, not that im trying to hook up with him. AHHH why do i overthink things so much!?